How beautiful is this picture?! OMG. My jaw literally dropped when I saw it!
I know that my last few posts have been Debbie Downers & I don’t want you to think I’m in that place. I mean, you know I have low days, sure. But I’m in a good place right now. I actually woke up smiling which is weird. Kinda felt like this:
Which is hilarious to me because I usually feel like this:
But anyway… 😉
I woke up feeling good & energized. Of course, my Bang helped but the motivation was already there.
“So you woke up & ready for the day? Why is this post-worthy?”
Because, my cynical reader, for those of us with depression, that is a precious aspect of life that many take for granted. We don’t always get those days. In fact, most of my days are average. But every now & then, I get these highly-driven days & I get a lot of shit done.
Just to be clear: I’m not manic. This isn’t a “top of the world” feeling that’ll come with a crash at some point. This is more of a “Holy shit. The burden is lifted & I’ve got a window. Time to get to work while I can.” I hope that makes sense. I do know those who deal with that beast & I don’t wanna downplay their struggles.
It’s almost 1400 here in the frozen tundra (Midwest USA) & I’m just about done with everything I wanted to get done with FOR THE DAY! Woo hoo!
I have to be careful when I have days like today that I don’t push it too hard or depression comes screaming back. It’s a tricky balance.
“How do you find the balance?”
It’s different for everyone, as clichéd as that sounds. I’m naturally a driven, competitive person so I’ll probably get more accomplished than someone who is more laid-back. And that’s nothing against them. It really depends on your personality & your chemical makeup. That’s all. 🙂
But for me, I know I have to try hard to not go “balls to the wall” & to sprinkle in some self-care. Dr. G told me to give myself some mini rewards, an incentive to help keep the ball rolling without it destroying everything in its path. For those who, like me, love visual examples, I like to picture it like walking on a frozen lake. If you’re not too careful, the ice will crack & you’ll fall into the waters. However, if you step lightly & go slow, you’ll get to where you want to be.
Today, my reward will be sitting on my couch & reading a book I really enjoy. Maybe I’ll make some tea as well. But I’ll sit there & quietly read under my favorite blanket. Ahh…
Maybe that’s a great reward for you. Maybe you prefer to go to the gym. Or get caught up on OITNB. Or whatever else.
Make it work FOR YOU. There is no “one size fits all.” You know you. You know what works & what doesn’t. ❤
This is my new favorite graph 🙂