discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
So yesterday was my 37th birthday. Woo hoo! My birthday has always been a big deal to me. For an attention-starved girl, I looked forward to the day when everyone had to be nice & pay attention to me. Oh, neuroses... so fun. I told friends & CG to not get me anything & I …
There are several things I've learned I'm "too old" for. I'll be 37 in a few weeks so it's not that I think I'm old. It's more like I know I can't do some things anymore. https://media.giphy.com/media/3b1JW7LxfsAKs/source.gif Indeed. So, in no particular order, here's a list of random shit I can't do or I need …
So I have a bit to tell you what happened yesterday... The Good: I've helped with Kiddush a few times at the temple. Rabbi S has tried a few times & I insist on taking over (I can just see his white tallit fall into the grape juice! Ugh!) or he just asks me directly. …
I was thinking the other day about those I've *held a candle for. Those I've hoped, prayed, begged, pleaded to get help & make changes. Sometimes it's because they're on a destructive path. Other times, it's because I care more about their success than they do. God, what a bitch, right? 😉 But I had …
This is just a quick note. Something I've recently noticed & it made me sad. So you know how most male friends of mine fade off because of their insecure & controlling girlfriends/wives? Even though I'm perfectly happy in my own relationship? And how it makes me feel like shit because my intentions are good? …
I'm an unusual believer/skeptic. I do believe in ghosts but I also believe that most of the paranormal could be explained by science. I don't buy into conspiracy theories but I'm wise enough to know that the government doesn't tell its people everything that's going on. I don't think crystals & rocks have healing powers …
I decided to get back on Twitter. It's been about 5 years & I've been playing with the idea for a while. I'm getting more annoyed with FB & everyone's chaos. I have my own I'm trying to deal with. I also found myself editing a lot since I have coworkers, family members, & others …
Yesterday was rough. I did everything I could to not snap. I sorta snapped at my loved ones but nowhere near what I was feeling internal. I'm human so sometimes I fuck up, yes. Considering everything I was going through, I did really well. As you know, I'm not a fan of bird-dogging. Like it …
Today's post is definitely more therapeutic. My apologies if it's difficult to read. Ugh, I'm so over this brain fog. I know what it's from. I haven't been super clean with eating like I should be (like maybe 70% clean) & I'm on my period, which means FATIGUE FOR DAYZZZ! I don't like how it's …
Ugh, FINALLY. I've been beyond slammed & stressed for Job #1 for about 3 weeks now. Shit has hit the fan & I've been pushing & pushing to get through. I'm finally caught up (which, to me, caught up means ahead of the curve) & feel like I now have a moment to breathe. I …
