I'm not doing well. I was supposed to go out with friends tonight & they cancelled. Why does this shit keep happening to me? What is it about me that says that you could cancel on me & that I will just deal with it on my own? I had already rearranged my schedule go …
Kaleidoscope
Today's gifset is by Mochimochi because, holy crap, it's cute! I was thinking last night about my eclectic beliefs & how I feel all over the map. For someone who is "all or nothing," lemme tell you, it's bizarre. So where to start: SPIRITUALITY As you know, I'm Jewish but I was raised Christian. Think …
No longer Clueless
So today's post isn't a fun one. Sorry not sorry. It's a serious issue that I've been battling for a long time & I'm finally at the stage where I can confront it & start to deal with it. * deep sigh * The other night, I watched "Clueless" on Netflix. God, I forgot how …
Happy 3rd Anniversary!
Mazel tov! We've made it 3 years! Can you believe it? My tagline for this blog is, "Discovering who I am in the midst of a chaotic world." I feel like it's still true for me today. Every day is another step towards my own, personal truth. Throughout the past few years, we've covered a …
My monsters
My insecurity has been at an all-time high lately. I'm paranoid, overly cautious, & feeling like a fake & that everyone will find out. I've been so scared & anxious, I feel paralyzed. I keep feeling like I'm gonna fuck up with my new job. They've told me repeatedly that I'm doing great & they're …
So I got hired…
It took a while to get going (thanks, COVID) but I'm finally working at my new job (Job #1) & I'm beyond happy there. 🙂 Today marks the end of my third week. A month to the day I was fired, I was hired with an amazing company. I'm in Accounts Receivable which is right …
Paying my dues
Hey... So I've been in the midst of grief but I'm not ready to write it out yet. Everything is still raw. In case you were wondering why I've been quiet, there you go. Thankfully, I have a list of other things I wanted to tell you about so, for now, I'll hop on over …
Health Check – April 2020
Well, we are deep in quarantine. So deep, in fact, we're hitting that phase where you can't put off random tasks anymore. We're so bored that we're taking care of everything even if it is begrudgingly because there is literally nothing else to do. So, this is a good time as any to update me …
Be kind
Two thoughts I wanted to share with you: ONE: "Be kind to yourself." I was up until about 0330 last night. My body was exhausted but my mind was going crazy (thanks, Anxiety). As I sat there with my thoughts swirling around my head of things I should've done, why I keep failing, & why …
Updates with Dr. Cox
Hey -Â Things have been really rough. I'm just gonna type & see what comes out. I usually have something of an idea or I check my ongoing list of topics. But my thoughts are all muddled so I need to get some clarity. Let's see what happens... JOB UPDATE Oy. Okay, so after applying …
