discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
Ah, yes. College. That time in our lives that's full of education, drinking with new friends, & overall excitement. When freshly graduated 18-year-olds venture out into the real world with Mom & Dad proudly looking on. What a time, right? Yeah, not for me. I know I've mentioned this at some point before but my …
One of the greatest pieces of advice I've heard lately has stayed with me for almost a month now. But first, a little background: Being a recovering perfectionist, I've known to struggle with doing everything & doing it all by myself with no errors. Asking for help was viewed as weakness & my high & …
Ugh. Where to start? I had a fight with someone last night. Same issue we've fought about before. I'm tired of it. There's only so many times I can voice my needs before I give up. I'm not even mad anymore. I'm worn out. There's nothing left for me to say or do. So, obviously, …
I think I'm gonna do these monthly goals until I hit one year. Good little motivator, right? – A snapshot – PHYSICAL: 5 → 6 FINANCIAL: 6 → 7 – The details – PHYSICAL: 5 I would say I'm pretty much maintaining at this point. I've been absolutely exhausted for the past few weeks (because …
I'm not sure what I want to talk to you about today so I'm just gonna get whatever's on my mind at the moment out. Don't get me wrong - I have a list on my desk of various topics I need to tell you & work through. But, as you know, everything's been a …
I'm currently sitting on my bed. I went to Temple, ran to Target, & came home. I changed my clothes, put on soothing music, & sat down. And the whole time, I'm trying to not cry. "What's going on?" My heart hurts. I'm not ready to open everything up & give you all the details. …
I've been overwhelmed, in a fog, & unable to think straight. I've been meaning to talk to you but I can't seem to get the words out. I'm slow-moving & I can feel the stress piling on. So much so, my jaw has been hurting non-stop for about 2 weeks now (from clinching, not from …
Last time I met with Dr. G, she was telling me to work on thinking with both my logical side & my emotional side. When I'm all logical, I'm cold to what my emotions are trying to teach me. When I'm all emotional, I can't see the truth due to the fog. "Ideally, you want …
Well, this sucks. Remember yesterday how I was honest & direct with what I need? Friend #1 & #2 have been damn near silent all day. Like maybe one or two lines of text. That's it. But that's nothing compared to Friend #3. I talked to them briefly on the phone & they sound happy. …
Ten days in & I'm just now doing this. Whoops. – A snapshot – PHYSICAL: 5 → 6 FINANCIAL: 6 → 7 – The details – PHYSICAL: 5 I've recently had a wakeup call about my physical health. Dr. G pretty much confirmed it for me as well. Being all or nothing, I've dived in …
