discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
Hey It's been a hot minute. I've had a lot of changes. Some good, some bad. I've been thinking about writing for a long time but I wasn't ready. I just needed a break. A long break, at that. So why today? Well, to be honest, today is a really, really bad day. I'm mentally …
0947 Wow. I've had A LOT happen in the past month. I started a new job & was told on Monday that they're moving me over from payroll to AR this week. I'm super excited & happy about it. I'm really good at AR so to move over after 2 ish weeks is just a …
Today's post is written for those I hurt. No fun gifs or anything today as this is for them. I want them to understand that I am serious about changing for the better. Hey - So Saturday was...interesting. I'm sure you were like, "Okay, she's having fun" or whatever. But to me, it was different. …
1126 Okay, so I had a few rough days. And "rough" is putting it lightly. I'll need to do a deeper dive into this later but I completely binged on alcohol & made some really stupid, really dangerous decisions. I'm okay. I'm safe & I'm home. Just need to put that out there. Like I …
2258 Today was a pretty good day. I put in my notice & my boss decided that I was done at that point (haha okay). I was prepared for that decision so I was fine. I took a shower, dropped off all the equipment I had (I worked remote), & I took myself out for …
Well, today was the tipping point. I decided to put my notice in tomorrow. I was gonna try to wait until next Friday so that I had another week of pay but this is such horseshit. My managers have ALL unfriended me on social media & refused to have acknowledged my presence. I haven't talked …
0946 Waiting at the doctor's. Nothing quite pisses me off like waiting on others. My time is valuable. If they can cancel on me for being 10 minutes late, why can't I cancel on them? Dammit. I forgot my ear buds. I was gonna listen to audible or calming music to keep me in control. …
2318 I dreamt about a high school reunion again. Why does that keep happening? It's so bizarre. This one was at a hockey game & I had a navy blue bodycon dress & red stilettos. Also, I was besties with Jason Alexander & Joey Tribbiani. Not Matt LeBlanc... Joey. Job #1 seems like it's grasping …
2129 I feel like I'm in this new area of my life where good things are coming my way. I'm not into the whole "law of attraction" belief. But this is like a gut feeling. Maybe it's just from being happier from separating myself from the drainers or what. I'm not sure. If I could …
Oh hello :)I watched this YouTube video by Struthless which was just exactly what I needed. I mean, as you know (from here & here), I've been stepping back from making myself too accessible to others. People take advantage & I've been drained & unable to recharge. I've been like this for years. Ugh. No …
finding my truth 