discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
Last time I met with Dr. G, she was telling me to work on thinking with both my logical side & my emotional side. When I'm all logical, I'm cold to what my emotions are trying to teach me. When I'm all emotional, I can't see the truth due to the fog. "Ideally, you want …
Well, this sucks. Remember yesterday how I was honest & direct with what I need? Friend #1 & #2 have been damn near silent all day. Like maybe one or two lines of text. That's it. But that's nothing compared to Friend #3. I talked to them briefly on the phone & they sound happy. …
Ten days in & I'm just now doing this. Whoops. – A snapshot – PHYSICAL: 5 → 6 FINANCIAL: 6 → 7 – The details – PHYSICAL: 5 I've recently had a wakeup call about my physical health. Dr. G pretty much confirmed it for me as well. Being all or nothing, I've dived in …
Continuing with today's earlier post... So I talked to Dr. G. Such a breath of fresh air. Seriously, everyone should be in therapy. I told her all about how I've been angry & sick of everyone's bullshit. I told her I don't feel guilty about it. I'm just done. And then she said the most …
I know, I know. I've been AWOL again. I've been swamped with work (Job #1). See, Boss went out of the country on vacation & sadly, this is when I have to use the opportunity to correct some fucked up wrongs without being interrupted every 2 minutes or micromanaged. It's a LOT of work up …
It's that time of the year again. A little earlier than last year but I'm there & ready to go. I have no idea where I want to start all of this. I feel like this: Here's what I've been dealing with... CAREER Job #1 is REALLY pissing me off. I told Boss I …
I can't write that out without thinking of this Friends episode. Classic! I realized something wonderful the other day. I've been buying myself some little flowers every week for years. I mean, YEARS. A small $5 bouquet lasts about 2 weeks & just looks beautiful. Every time I would look at them, I smile. A …
Hey! Last week marked TWO YEARS! What?! That's crazy! Thank you for hanging out with me while I'm trying to find my inner compass & head to my true north. It's definitely a challenge but your company makes it easier & better. 🙂 Here are the top 3 posts of the last year: Unworthy Spoon …
Disclaimer: I'm sure somebody will read this & want to reach out. Please don't. I'm not looking for a handout or pity friends. I'm done with that. I'm working through some heartache & this is how I'm doing it. I've spent most of the day isolating myself from friends & loved ones. I need space …
I know I've mentioned this before but it's weighing on my mind today... I'm so done with waiting and waiting and waiting for people to get their shit together. I realized today that while waiting for a change that will never happen, I'm putting my life on hold. Why do I do that? Why can't …
