Backpedaling

Such a cute movie! Hey stranger - So Job #1 has been crazy busy (seasonal work & all) so I haven't had time to actually talk to you & get you caught up on what's going on with me. I still have my list of several topics to cover with you. It's funny because I'll …

B+s, not A+s

One of the greatest pieces of advice I've heard lately has stayed with me for almost a month now. But first, a little background: Being a recovering perfectionist, I've known to struggle with doing everything & doing it all by myself with no errors. Asking for help was viewed as weakness & my high & …

Supernova

I've been overwhelmed, in a fog, & unable to think straight. I've been meaning to talk to you but I can't seem to get the words out. I'm slow-moving & I can feel the stress piling on. So much so, my jaw has been hurting non-stop for about 2 weeks now (from clinching, not from …

Logical & emotional

Last time I met with Dr. G, she was telling me to work on thinking with both my logical side & my emotional side. When I'm all logical, I'm cold to what my emotions are trying to teach me. When I'm all emotional, I can't see the truth due to the fog. "Ideally, you want …

Empty vases

I can't write that out without thinking of this Friends episode. Classic! I realized something wonderful the other day. I've been buying myself some little flowers every week for years. I mean, YEARS. A small $5 bouquet lasts about 2 weeks & just looks beautiful. Every time I would look at them, I smile. A …

Saying goodbye

I've been thinking lately about people from my past. Old friends who've moved away or we've naturally drifted apart after graduation or when jobs end. Toxic "friends" I had to keep away for my own health (& my therapist agrees). Everything from big blow-outs over a significant other to walking away with no response. What …

I’m not her

Continuing with emptying out my heart & my mind, this one is really painful & hard to write. I'm having to take a lot of breaks & calm down so that I don't get worked up into an attack. My apologies if it doesn't flow well... Trigger warning: Abusive parent I'm not her. It's a …

Realism

Please don't mistake this post for arrogance. Everyone has a trait they excel in - this one is mine. That's all. I'm sure if you talked about fly-fishing or ice skating or whatever you kick ass in, you wouldn't think you were boasting, right? Same, fam. I was thinking about the other day how I …