discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
Ugh, FINALLY. I've been beyond slammed & stressed for Job #1 for about 3 weeks now. Shit has hit the fan & I've been pushing & pushing to get through. I'm finally caught up (which, to me, caught up means ahead of the curve) & feel like I now have a moment to breathe. I …
Such a cute movie! Hey stranger - So Job #1 has been crazy busy (seasonal work & all) so I haven't had time to actually talk to you & get you caught up on what's going on with me. I still have my list of several topics to cover with you. It's funny because I'll …
So, as you know, I've been wanting to get some physical stuff taken care of. I'm 36 & I'm feeling the pressure to get my shit together. Not that I feel "old" but more like, "I'm not 20. I can't put off some of this anymore." In case you missed the first go-around... ✔️ Blood …
One of the greatest pieces of advice I've heard lately has stayed with me for almost a month now. But first, a little background: Being a recovering perfectionist, I've known to struggle with doing everything & doing it all by myself with no errors. Asking for help was viewed as weakness & my high & …
I've been overwhelmed, in a fog, & unable to think straight. I've been meaning to talk to you but I can't seem to get the words out. I'm slow-moving & I can feel the stress piling on. So much so, my jaw has been hurting non-stop for about 2 weeks now (from clinching, not from …
Last time I met with Dr. G, she was telling me to work on thinking with both my logical side & my emotional side. When I'm all logical, I'm cold to what my emotions are trying to teach me. When I'm all emotional, I can't see the truth due to the fog. "Ideally, you want …
Continuing with today's earlier post... So I talked to Dr. G. Such a breath of fresh air. Seriously, everyone should be in therapy. I told her all about how I've been angry & sick of everyone's bullshit. I told her I don't feel guilty about it. I'm just done. And then she said the most …
I can't write that out without thinking of this Friends episode. Classic! I realized something wonderful the other day. I've been buying myself some little flowers every week for years. I mean, YEARS. A small $5 bouquet lasts about 2 weeks & just looks beautiful. Every time I would look at them, I smile. A …
I've been thinking lately about people from my past. Old friends who've moved away or we've naturally drifted apart after graduation or when jobs end. Toxic "friends" I had to keep away for my own health (& my therapist agrees). Everything from big blow-outs over a significant other to walking away with no response. What …
Continuing with emptying out my heart & my mind, this one is really painful & hard to write. I'm having to take a lot of breaks & calm down so that I don't get worked up into an attack. My apologies if it doesn't flow well... Trigger warning: Abusive parent I'm not her. It's a …
