discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
Hey... I had some pretty serious shit happen. In the course of a week, I lost two family members (one in my family & one in my SO's family). Remember that awesome aunt I was telling you about? Yeah, she died shortly afterwards. From the time I heard about her being in the hospital to …
I know. I wanted to do my happy, little challenge & post every day. Then shit hit the fan. Why does Life happen like that?So what happened? A few things.One: I've been in a light funk. A "diet funk," if you will. I'm not super low, super depressed but all my actions & thinking say …
I had my bi-weekly massage last night. I knew my hips have been screaming more & I think it's because of my ankle/Achilles. Like I've been walking with a limp so I can only imagine how that hip is trying to cope.Anyways, I told my massage therapist about my foot. I told her how I …
I realized something the other day when I spoke to Dr. H - I don't drink as much as I used to. It wasn't ever like I craved alcohol or that I was addicted by any means. It was more of a "drink until you can't hear those thoughts & feel those feelings anymore." I …
Four years?! Crazy!Every year I like to bring up a few posts that I've gotten feedback on that have helped you. Over the past four years, here are the top four:What High-Functioning Depression Looks LikeSo I Got Fired... Thank You Me vs ThemAs always, thank you for joining me on the journey. This next year …
I've been thinking about what Dr. G told me to do with intrusive thoughts. She's mentioned to me a few times of acknowledging their presence (either by taking a moment or saying, "That's interesting") before releasing it & letting it go. I'm sure this sounds like an easy-peasy task for most of you. For me, …
Do you ever look back at your childhood & think it was normal...until you start talking to others? I'm not just talking about the obvious damage like abuse. My brother & I were raised in a fundamental Christian home. Televangelists were to be honored & respected, regardless of their slimy ways. Halloween was "evil." And …
I try really hard to not compare myself to others. I know I should only be in competition with myself. But I'm human. And more than that, I'm an American woman. As much as it pains me to say this, society has ingrained in me to compare myself to other women. Coupled with my own …
My apologies for the radio silence. I've been chewing on this post for a few weeks. I didn't realize it was so difficult for me to get out. Thank you for your patience & understanding.I had a scary thought. I realized in about a month, I will have been graduated from high school for 20 …
So this isn't on my list of items to tell you but it's really important to me so it jumps to the top of the list. I spent some time yesterday going through my old posts. And in true fashion, I cringed. A lot. 😉 I guess that means I've grown, right? But more than …
