discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
So today's post isn't a fun one. Sorry not sorry. It's a serious issue that I've been battling for a long time & I'm finally at the stage where I can confront it & start to deal with it. * deep sigh * The other night, I watched "Clueless" on Netflix. God, I forgot how …
Mazel tov! We've made it 3 years! Can you believe it? My tagline for this blog is, "Discovering who I am in the midst of a chaotic world." I feel like it's still true for me today. Every day is another step towards my own, personal truth. Throughout the past few years, we've covered a …
My insecurity has been at an all-time high lately. I'm paranoid, overly cautious, & feeling like a fake & that everyone will find out. I've been so scared & anxious, I feel paralyzed. I keep feeling like I'm gonna fuck up with my new job. They've told me repeatedly that I'm doing great & they're …
Hey - Things have been really rough. I'm just gonna type & see what comes out. I usually have something of an idea or I check my ongoing list of topics. But my thoughts are all muddled so I need to get some clarity. Let's see what happens... JOB UPDATE Oy. Okay, so after applying …
Ugh. Depression is a bitch. Let me tell you how it's been for me. PUNCH ONE Okay, so obviously, everyone is dealing with isolation from COVID-19. Staying home isn't an issue for me. And if one more person tells me, "Oh, you'll be fine! You're an introvert!", I swear to God... Yes, I'm an introvert …
As a Jew, I don't believe or follow acts of penance but I do beat myself up a lot for being human. So samesies? In an effort to work on that, I thought I would write it out here. Sigh. Where to start? A little background: I'm dealing with some life-changing shit at the moment. …
This week has been in-fucking-sane. Every day, there's been something new - either awesome or incredibly shitty. It's Friday the 13th (my fave!) & I couldn't enjoy it. Ugh. Okay, onto my story: Yeah. So that happened on Monday... I could spend hours telling you all the shitty things Boss #1 did, how much I …
OMG. I'm so tired of being so tired. I know. Every person alive is tired. And maybe the dead are too. 😉 And bitching about it is irritating & obnoxious. However... I've been like this for a good week or two. It doesn't seem to matter how much caffeine I'm taking in or how many …
I'm feeling pretty low today. I'm frustrated with a relationship & I don't know what to do. Why can't they meet me halfway? Why can't they offer reassurance? They know I have anxiety. They know I have OCD. They know how I'm wired. They know I don't want to be like this. They know my …
I've had this song in my head all day. It's like LMM wrote it for me. When I first heard this song, it resonated within me. Seeing Hamilton sealed the deal. In this incredible musical, Burr is alone on stage & singing how he's "willing to wait for it." Wait for his chances with love, …
