discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
I decided to get back on Twitter. It's been about 5 years & I've been playing with the idea for a while. I'm getting more annoyed with FB & everyone's chaos. I have my own I'm trying to deal with. I also found myself editing a lot since I have coworkers, family members, & others …
Today's post is definitely more therapeutic. My apologies if it's difficult to read. Ugh, I'm so over this brain fog. I know what it's from. I haven't been super clean with eating like I should be (like maybe 70% clean) & I'm on my period, which means FATIGUE FOR DAYZZZ! I don't like how it's …
Just get it out, SC. Type until you feel better. I'm not sure where to go from here. I'm slightly better than yesterday but not by much if I'm being honest. I still feel like I'm just floating downstream. I'm sure it's hard to understand if you've never experienced a depressive episode. I can't just …
So how are you? Long-time no see. (Talk? See? I don't know.) I feel like the last few weeks have been a blink. I've been pushing & pushing so much that I knew this was gonna happen. And today it happened. I hit a fucking wall. I woke up & immediately felt defeated. Yep. Low …
Sigh... Well, I don't have to wait until October anymore. I got my answer tonight & I wasn't ready at all. It was wrapped in a broken promised package with a pretty little bow. Things that were gonna work a few days ago are now gone. I'm so tired of being hurt. I'm so tired …
Ugh. Okay, so today is one of those posts when I'm working through some stuff. Side note: these posts don't get put on FB because it's a little too raw for me. I'm really frustrated. Emotionally, sexually, physically. I've talked to him several times about this & I feel like I'm just getting 🤷 every …
I started classes last week which was great. I noticed last night that I was missing a few students & I had a few "sickies" show up. And today? Today, my throat hurts & I'm a little stuffy. Ughhhh. Leave your sick kids at home! Airborne viruses are a thing! My period started yesterday, too. …
Ah, yes. College. That time in our lives that's full of education, drinking with new friends, & overall excitement. When freshly graduated 18-year-olds venture out into the real world with Mom & Dad proudly looking on. What a time, right? Yeah, not for me. I know I've mentioned this at some point before but my …
Ugh. Where to start? I had a fight with someone last night. Same issue we've fought about before. I'm tired of it. There's only so many times I can voice my needs before I give up. I'm not even mad anymore. I'm worn out. There's nothing left for me to say or do. So, obviously, …
I'm currently sitting on my bed. I went to Temple, ran to Target, & came home. I changed my clothes, put on soothing music, & sat down. And the whole time, I'm trying to not cry. "What's going on?" My heart hurts. I'm not ready to open everything up & give you all the details. …
