Cake

I have this perfect analogy I wanted to share with you. I keep trying to explain my feelings to someone & it's not clicking. I'm not sure how to bring my point across. I think this "story" helps a lot & hopefully, it'll make sense.Let's pretend it's my birthday. And let's say my friend, Mary, …

Derailed

Today's a rough one. There's your warning. Why are relationships so hard? Why is it so difficult to have someone try to own up to their mistakes & fix the damage they've caused? What is it about me that everyone just brushes over what I need? Is it too much to ask to meet me …

Hiatus

So after my last quasi-drunken rambling, I decided I needed a break. A break from people, a break from blogging, a break from anything I could get away from. I know I'm still healing & that it's not a linear process. Some days are awesome & others are really rough. I had a heart-to-heart with …

Sick in the head

I'm not doing well. I was supposed to go out with friends tonight & they cancelled. Why does this shit keep happening to me? What is it about me that says that you could cancel on me & that I will just deal with it on my own? I had already rearranged my schedule go …

My monsters

My insecurity has been at an all-time high lately. I'm paranoid, overly cautious, & feeling like a fake & that everyone will find out. I've been so scared & anxious, I feel paralyzed. I keep feeling like I'm gonna fuck up with my new job. They've told me repeatedly that I'm doing great & they're …

In the ring

Ugh. Depression is a bitch. Let me tell you how it's been for me. PUNCH ONE Okay, so obviously, everyone is dealing with isolation from COVID-19. Staying home isn't an issue for me. And if one more person tells me, "Oh, you'll be fine! You're an introvert!", I swear to God... Yes, I'm an introvert …