discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
Ugh. Depression is a bitch. Let me tell you how it's been for me. PUNCH ONE Okay, so obviously, everyone is dealing with isolation from COVID-19. Staying home isn't an issue for me. And if one more person tells me, "Oh, you'll be fine! You're an introvert!", I swear to God... Yes, I'm an introvert …
As a Jew, I don't believe or follow acts of penance but I do beat myself up a lot for being human. So samesies? In an effort to work on that, I thought I would write it out here. Sigh. Where to start? A little background: I'm dealing with some life-changing shit at the moment. …
This week has been in-fucking-sane. Every day, there's been something new - either awesome or incredibly shitty. It's Friday the 13th (my fave!) & I couldn't enjoy it. Ugh. Okay, onto my story: Yeah. So that happened on Monday... I could spend hours telling you all the shitty things Boss #1 did, how much I …
OMG. I'm so tired of being so tired. I know. Every person alive is tired. And maybe the dead are too. 😉 And bitching about it is irritating & obnoxious. However... I've been like this for a good week or two. It doesn't seem to matter how much caffeine I'm taking in or how many …
I'm feeling pretty low today. I'm frustrated with a relationship & I don't know what to do. Why can't they meet me halfway? Why can't they offer reassurance? They know I have anxiety. They know I have OCD. They know how I'm wired. They know I don't want to be like this. They know my …
I've had this song in my head all day. It's like LMM wrote it for me. When I first heard this song, it resonated within me. Seeing Hamilton sealed the deal. In this incredible musical, Burr is alone on stage & singing how he's "willing to wait for it." Wait for his chances with love, …
There are several things I've learned I'm "too old" for. I'll be 37 in a few weeks so it's not that I think I'm old. It's more like I know I can't do some things anymore. https://media.giphy.com/media/3b1JW7LxfsAKs/source.gif Indeed. So, in no particular order, here's a list of random shit I can't do or I need …
I decided to get back on Twitter. It's been about 5 years & I've been playing with the idea for a while. I'm getting more annoyed with FB & everyone's chaos. I have my own I'm trying to deal with. I also found myself editing a lot since I have coworkers, family members, & others …
Today's post is definitely more therapeutic. My apologies if it's difficult to read. Ugh, I'm so over this brain fog. I know what it's from. I haven't been super clean with eating like I should be (like maybe 70% clean) & I'm on my period, which means FATIGUE FOR DAYZZZ! I don't like how it's …
Just get it out, SC. Type until you feel better. I'm not sure where to go from here. I'm slightly better than yesterday but not by much if I'm being honest. I still feel like I'm just floating downstream. I'm sure it's hard to understand if you've never experienced a depressive episode. I can't just …
