discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
I've had this song in my head all day. It's like LMM wrote it for me. When I first heard this song, it resonated within me. Seeing Hamilton sealed the deal. In this incredible musical, Burr is alone on stage & singing how he's "willing to wait for it." Wait for his chances with love, …
There are several things I've learned I'm "too old" for. I'll be 37 in a few weeks so it's not that I think I'm old. It's more like I know I can't do some things anymore. https://media.giphy.com/media/3b1JW7LxfsAKs/source.gif Indeed. So, in no particular order, here's a list of random shit I can't do or I need …
I decided to get back on Twitter. It's been about 5 years & I've been playing with the idea for a while. I'm getting more annoyed with FB & everyone's chaos. I have my own I'm trying to deal with. I also found myself editing a lot since I have coworkers, family members, & others …
Today's post is definitely more therapeutic. My apologies if it's difficult to read. Ugh, I'm so over this brain fog. I know what it's from. I haven't been super clean with eating like I should be (like maybe 70% clean) & I'm on my period, which means FATIGUE FOR DAYZZZ! I don't like how it's …
Just get it out, SC. Type until you feel better. I'm not sure where to go from here. I'm slightly better than yesterday but not by much if I'm being honest. I still feel like I'm just floating downstream. I'm sure it's hard to understand if you've never experienced a depressive episode. I can't just …
So how are you? Long-time no see. (Talk? See? I don't know.) I feel like the last few weeks have been a blink. I've been pushing & pushing so much that I knew this was gonna happen. And today it happened. I hit a fucking wall. I woke up & immediately felt defeated. Yep. Low …
Sigh... Well, I don't have to wait until October anymore. I got my answer tonight & I wasn't ready at all. It was wrapped in a broken promised package with a pretty little bow. Things that were gonna work a few days ago are now gone. I'm so tired of being hurt. I'm so tired …
Ugh. Okay, so today is one of those posts when I'm working through some stuff. Side note: these posts don't get put on FB because it's a little too raw for me. I'm really frustrated. Emotionally, sexually, physically. I've talked to him several times about this & I feel like I'm just getting 🤷 every …
I started classes last week which was great. I noticed last night that I was missing a few students & I had a few "sickies" show up. And today? Today, my throat hurts & I'm a little stuffy. Ughhhh. Leave your sick kids at home! Airborne viruses are a thing! My period started yesterday, too. …
Ah, yes. College. That time in our lives that's full of education, drinking with new friends, & overall excitement. When freshly graduated 18-year-olds venture out into the real world with Mom & Dad proudly looking on. What a time, right? Yeah, not for me. I know I've mentioned this at some point before but my …
