finding my truth

Let’s jump right into it.

I feel like I’m in this new phase of life. I’m cutting the fat in areas I spent far too long trying to maintain or care for. I can honestly say I’ve worked issues through every direction and every angle, and I know what’s going to work for me and what isn’t worth it anymore. It’s served its time. And now, it’s time to thank it and release it.

Most of it is personal, like mental, emotional, & social changes. Professionally, I’m working really hard on not taking issues personally & I’ve come a long, long way. When my boss pings me & says she wants to talk, I no longer have that rush of adrenaline coupled with a drop in my stomach & being full of fear. Now, it’s like a slight dip & I remind myself of how she works (she’s a fan of body doubling), so I’ve done nothing wrong.

I was talking to a friend about it last night. I’m probably coming across as angry or bitter, but that’s not the case. If there is any anger, it’s directed at myself for putting up with bullshit for far too long. I’ve disrespected myself & my core beliefs & I’m done with that.

One of the areas is social media. Being here in the States and entering into an oligarchy, I find myself intolerant of hate, fear, and massive propaganda. I decided to pull back on social media. I’ll be regularly posting on Bluesky as well as here…and that’s it. As of now, I am keeping the others open as I do use them to communicate with others. Maybe one day I’ll pull the plug, but not today.

There is just so much noise, and the thought of doom scrolling infuriates me. I can’t quite place it, but it’s like this feeling that I’m wasting my life away. And that’s where the anger comes in. I’ve watched others remain stagnant in their own lives for YEARS, but I can tell you the latest and greatest TikTok. And I don’t want to be like that. We never know how much time we have left, and I want to use it wisely.

The key to success is to make small, consistent changes. Start small and build up to it. So, for me, I decided to implement different phases. I don’t have it all figured out, but I don’t need to. As Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. once said, “You don’t have to see the whole staircase. Just take the first step.”

So, what is this phase for me?

Phase 1
– Pulling back from social media
– Reading more as I have a growing stack of books lol
– Making a list of things I’m interested in or that I want to accomplish

It’s pretty simple, but that’s my plan. 🙂