Simmering

I think this is part 4 by now... I've been taking little breaks throughout the day in writing this. Disclaimer:┬áThis is just where I'm at today. I don't need anyone to "check up" on me. I don't need to meet anyone for lunch. I don't need to call my therapist. I'm not in any danger. …

Hopeless

Once again, I'm feeling really low so I'm just working through things. Sigh... I don't know where to begin. It's all kinda rough but I'll do my best to explain how I feel. I'm very depressed & feeling very hopeless. I'm in bed & I keep staring at the thick, black belt that's hanging over …

Pain

I'm in a lot of pain. Emotionally & physically. Let's start with physically: Last Friday, I was at the gym & I noticed my left hand/wrist was kinda sore. I figured I just kinda tweaked it from the weights & I would be fine with a day or two off. By Wednesday, I found myself …

I’m okay

Some of my friends have been concerned with what I've been posting. I really appreciate their love but I don't want them to worry. I want to take a moment to just clarify a few things. Please understand that I'm okay. It's just all in my mind. Outside of the rare cut to get a …

Paranoid

Let me preface this by saying I know I'm in my head. I know I'm not thinking straight. I know I'm trying to physically heal as well as mentally & emotionally. So, yes, there is a lot going on right now. From what I've been told, it is all in my head. I'm still dealing …