Derailed

Today's a rough one. There's your warning. Why are relationships so hard? Why is it so difficult to have someone try to own up to their mistakes & fix the damage they've caused? What is it about me that everyone just brushes over what I need? Is it too much to ask to meet me …

Building walls

Disclaimer: I'm sure somebody will read this & want to reach out. Please don't. I'm not looking for a handout or pity friends. I'm done with that. I'm working through some heartache & this is how I'm doing it. I've spent most of the day isolating myself from friends & loved ones. I need space …

Simmering

I think this is part 4 by now... I've been taking little breaks throughout the day in writing this. Disclaimer:┬áThis is just where I'm at today. I don't need anyone to "check up" on me. I don't need to meet anyone for lunch. I don't need to call my therapist. I'm not in any danger. …

Hopeless

Once again, I'm feeling really low so I'm just working through things. Sigh... I don't know where to begin. It's all kinda rough but I'll do my best to explain how I feel. I'm very depressed & feeling very hopeless. I'm in bed & I keep staring at the thick, black belt that's hanging over …

Pain

I'm in a lot of pain. Emotionally & physically. Let's start with physically: Last Friday, I was at the gym & I noticed my left hand/wrist was kinda sore. I figured I just kinda tweaked it from the weights & I would be fine with a day or two off. By Wednesday, I found myself …

I’m okay

Some of my friends have been concerned with what I've been posting. I really appreciate their love but I don't want them to worry. I want to take a moment to just clarify a few things. Please understand that I'm okay. It's just all in my mind. Outside of the rare cut to get a …