discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
I'm feeling pretty low today. I'm frustrated with a relationship & I don't know what to do. Why can't they meet me halfway? Why can't they offer reassurance? They know I have anxiety. They know I have OCD. They know how I'm wired. They know I don't want to be like this. They know my …
After probably around 3 years, I've finally turned a corner with my dreams. I'm so happy I could cry. Let me explain. Since Day 1 of starting on medication, I dream roughly 5 nights out of 7 THE SAME DREAM. Maybe not identical every night but it's all the same song & dance even if …
I'm feeling a little better today. I had a few unsettling dreams but nothing I couldn't handle (I'm usually a lucid dreamer). I've been dreaming a lot lately of being in my childhood home & fighting with my parents. It's weird because I'm my 35-year-old self but in my 15-year-old self's room. I see a …
I think I'm doing pretty good so far! I've had most of my meals at home since I've cut way back on going out to eat. I think I mentioned to you how I've been buying more fruits & vegetables, right? I've been using those as my quick snack when I'm hungry which is nice …
I had a dream about you last night. It was a wonderful, happy dream. We were laughing, hanging out, & having a great time. I had some pointe production with some coworkers & I did a good job! I was actually quite impressed but I wanted to know how you felt, since your opinion means …
I've dreamt a lot in the past few nights about my friend. And they've all ended up the same - painful rejection. Much like this little boy, I'm on the outside & all alone. Last night, I dreamt I was in this shitty black Grand Prix that was way too small for me. I had …
For about 18 months, I've dreamt the same theme 4-5 nights a week. Yes, it gets old. Even more so, it's exhausting. As a lucid dreamer, I should be able to correct it & move on. "Should" being the operative word. But for some reason, I'm absolutely paralyzed by it. So what am I dreaming? …
So you know I was telling you yesterday how I was just floating downstream? Well, the current stopped. I feel like I'm at a standstill. I'm not drowning nor am I moving forward towards any kind of progress. I'm just...here. Back to treading water, I suppose. I'm sure it has to do with the fact I …
Lately, I've been dreaming really weird. Like 80% nightmare & then it breaks into 20% happy or funny dream. I'm not sure why but it's been my pattern lately. Last night, during the nightmare portion, I dreamt about this girl who royally fucked me over for her benefit. She was a hybrid of two former …
Continue reading "♪ Now you’re just somebody that I used to know! ♪"
I had an interesting dream last night... I dreamt I was hooking up on the side with an old boyfriend. By "old," I mean, I haven't seen him or talked to him in at least 5 years & we very briefly dated 20 years ago. I don't think about him so I'm not sure why …
