Finally

Sigh. I'm on the upswing today. About time, right? Which means I should be back to "normal" tomorrow. Normal. What the fuck does that even mean? Nobody is "normal." We all fight different demons on different levels. I think we just reach an impasse & during that time, everything calms down. I think part of …

Day 3

Ugh. Still in this funk. The good news is I can tell I'm "over the hump." I only cried a little bit today & I got more done at work & at home. I do work hard to not let it affect my jobs. I plaster on a smile, grind my teeth, & press on. …

Bad day

Today was bad. Really bad. It was a low day to begin with. As anyone with depression can tell you, sometimes you can catch it & see it coming but not always. Sometimes you go to bed thinking you're gonna wake up & be crazy productive. But then depression is like, "Nah, fam" & you're …

Laughter

I have no idea who those kids are but, my God! They are adorable! I went to a friend's house today for her birthday. There were around 10-12 of us around a table playing a game. Everyone got along really well & were sharing laughs. I only knew the host & hostess but I could …

Love

"We all want to be loved, yeah We all want just a little respect We all want to be loved Tell me what's wrong with that" - dc Talk This quote has been playing in my head for a while now. The older I get, the more I find this statement is really accurate. Everything …

Happy

I realized something wonderful today. I've been trying to consciously make good decisions. To be honest, I've failed more than I've succeeded. I'm a work in process & it's been a long process at that. But something felt different this morning. I woke up smiling. I felt hopeful. Even on my good days, I didn't …