Centering myself

I feel pulled in multiple directions by various people, situations, & distractions. Like a medieval rack, I feel strapped down & out of control. The pressure & tension from others is getting tighter & something is bound to break.  I've had a few serious light bulbs go off. I can't waste any more time. I …

Chest pains

Since I've been on medication, I'm happy to report I've only had 2-3 "minor" panic attacks. I call them minor as they are nowhere near as intense as they were pre-meds. And, good news, I have the option now to take a Xanax if I'm feeling like they're getting too intense. But lately, I've been …

Baby steps

When I fail so hard that I feel like there's no way I can recover, I pull myself up & take a baby step. I focus on what's right in front of me & fuck the rest.  

Ouch

I'm sorry yesterday's post was short. I'll edit it & give you a proper update soon enough. Yesterday was hard for me. I've been feeling like I'm at a crossroads & so I made a very difficult decision. It was a "damned if you do, damned if you don't" situation. Much like this graphic, I …

Eponine

I first heard about Les Mis maybe 20-23 years ago. I heard "On My Own" & I instantly fell in love. I sat & listened to the lyrics & cried. I was finally introduced to a character who was just like me. I've always been friends with guys. But there were a special few who …