Watching TV

Blame it on my personality type but I'm not one to watch TV for hours on end. I really don't get it. I feel like my time & energy could be used elsewhere. It used to bother me when my family would watch TV all night. Five hours sitting & staring at mindless bullshit to …

Turning red

So I'm one of these people who turn crazy red. A lot. I'm not even embarrassed or ashamed. Just the attention on me or laughing or whatever triggers the blushing response in me. It annoys me. But it's nothing compared to every asshole on the planet pointing it out. *side eyes for days* "OMG! Look …

A clean home

I spend my Saturday mornings cleaning my house. Some might find it tedious but I love it. For as long as I can remember, cleaning has always soothed me. I grew up in a house of excess & clutter. It was hoarding, plain & simple. But for me, organizing my room was within my control. …

Must. Not. Kill.

Much like my kindred spirit, Robin, here, I'm unbelievably frustrated. I'm fuming, seething. I feel like a boiling pot that's about to overflow. I'm trying my best to regain control & to not blow my fuse. I got myself a fat drink that I've been nursing for the last hour or so. I feel ignored, …

Finally

Sigh. I'm on the upswing today. About time, right? Which means I should be back to "normal" tomorrow. Normal. What the fuck does that even mean? Nobody is "normal." We all fight different demons on different levels. I think we just reach an impasse & during that time, everything calms down. I think part of …

Day 3

Ugh. Still in this funk. The good news is I can tell I'm "over the hump." I only cried a little bit today & I got more done at work & at home. I do work hard to not let it affect my jobs. I plaster on a smile, grind my teeth, & press on. …