discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
I'm not sure if it's because I'm American or how I was raised or how my mind works or whatever, but there is this "what if" inside of me when it comes to products. Let me explain.What if this shampoo is alright but there's a better one out there for my hair? What if this …
CW: eating disorders, rude-ass people I feel like it's been a blur of holidays. First Rosh Hashanah, then Yom Kippur, & now Sukkot - all within a blink. I get the whole "tis the season" part of it but I'm still chewing on my New Year's resolutions. And still trying to make amends with myself …
Hey... I had some pretty serious shit happen. In the course of a week, I lost two family members (one in my family & one in my SO's family). Remember that awesome aunt I was telling you about? Yeah, she died shortly afterwards. From the time I heard about her being in the hospital to …
I know. I wanted to do my happy, little challenge & post every day. Then shit hit the fan. Why does Life happen like that?So what happened? A few things.One: I've been in a light funk. A "diet funk," if you will. I'm not super low, super depressed but all my actions & thinking say …
I had my bi-weekly massage last night. I knew my hips have been screaming more & I think it's because of my ankle/Achilles. Like I've been walking with a limp so I can only imagine how that hip is trying to cope.Anyways, I told my massage therapist about my foot. I told her how I …
I'm so bored today at work. There's literally nothing for me to do. And why is that? Because I'm so Type A that I'm way ahead in work. And because I work primarily in past dues & collections, I can't so much send a notice to a vendor when they're not late yet. 😉 So …
I realized something the other day when I spoke to Dr. H - I don't drink as much as I used to. It wasn't ever like I craved alcohol or that I was addicted by any means. It was more of a "drink until you can't hear those thoughts & feel those feelings anymore." I …
This morning, I quasi-rejoined my temple's minyan morning service. I say "quasi" since my rabbi had recorded & uploaded a service for those who wouldn't be able to attend in the mornings. He's incredibly considerate like that. 🙂 Morning prayers start at 0800 which is when I start work so you can see why I …
So I've kinda gone through some friendship shit lately. People who claim they love you then tell you they no longer do. People who say they're always there but haven't talked to you in months. You know the type. A few of these have ran & jumped off the ship lately. It's interesting because I'm …
CONTENT WARNING: Today's post is for mature audiences only. Topics of sexuality can make others uncomfortable or be an unintended trigger for those who have experienced trauma. My intention for today is to destigmatize & normalize healthy sexual behavior. Discretion is advised. DISCLAIMER: Before I get into today's topic, I want to be honest. Full …
finding my truth 