Coasting

I'm currently sitting on my bed. I went to Temple, ran to Target, & came home. I changed my clothes, put on soothing music, & sat down. And the whole time, I'm trying to not cry. "What's going on?" My heart hurts. I'm not ready to open everything up & give you all the details. …

Supernova

I've been overwhelmed, in a fog, & unable to think straight. I've been meaning to talk to you but I can't seem to get the words out. I'm slow-moving & I can feel the stress piling on. So much so, my jaw has been hurting non-stop for about 2 weeks now (from clinching, not from …

Logical & emotional

Last time I met with Dr. G, she was telling me to work on thinking with both my logical side & my emotional side. When I'm all logical, I'm cold to what my emotions are trying to teach me. When I'm all emotional, I can't see the truth due to the fog. "Ideally, you want …

Girl, bye

Well, this sucks. Remember yesterday how I was honest & direct with what I need? Friend #1 & #2 have been damn near silent all day. Like maybe one or two lines of text. That's it. But that's nothing compared to Friend #3. I talked to them briefly on the phone & they sound happy. …

July Goals

Ten days in & I'm just now doing this. Whoops. – A snapshot – PHYSICAL: 5 → 6 FINANCIAL: 6 → 7 – The details – PHYSICAL: 5 I've recently had a wakeup call about my physical health. Dr. G pretty much confirmed it for me as well. Being all or nothing, I've dived in …

Don’t poke the bear

I know, I know. I've been AWOL again. I've been swamped with work (Job #1). See, Boss went out of the country on vacation & sadly, this is when I have to use the opportunity to correct some fucked up wrongs without being interrupted every 2 minutes or micromanaged. It's a LOT of work up …

Empty vases

I can't write that out without thinking of this Friends episode. Classic! I realized something wonderful the other day. I've been buying myself some little flowers every week for years. I mean, YEARS. A small $5 bouquet lasts about 2 weeks & just looks beautiful. Every time I would look at them, I smile. A …