discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
Today's gifset was requested by MB. Certain character you wanna see? Let me know! I've noticed a new change lately. I told you how I could tell my subconscious was finally cooperating. But I'm seeing the effect in my conscious life. I'm overall...happier. I can't quite put my finger on what it was or what …
After probably around 3 years, I've finally turned a corner with my dreams. I'm so happy I could cry. Let me explain. Since Day 1 of starting on medication, I dream roughly 5 nights out of 7 THE SAME DREAM. Maybe not identical every night but it's all the same song & dance even if …
Well, hello there, beautiful! How are things with you? Are they as scattered as they are with me? Fantastic. We're in this together. It's been so hard for me to focus these last few weeks. I'm sure it's from all the holidays (HanukkahChristmasHanukkahNewYear's - as if it was all one thought). People are off of …
I'm not really sure what to talk to you about today. I just feel this need to type so let's see what comes out. 😉 I'm trying this new thing where I just fucking grow up & deal with the shit I need to do. Crazy, right? 😉 Sundays have become my "pesky tasks day." …
So yesterday was my 37th birthday. Woo hoo! My birthday has always been a big deal to me. For an attention-starved girl, I looked forward to the day when everyone had to be nice & pay attention to me. Oh, neuroses... so fun. I told friends & CG to not get me anything & I …
There are several things I've learned I'm "too old" for. I'll be 37 in a few weeks so it's not that I think I'm old. It's more like I know I can't do some things anymore. https://media.giphy.com/media/3b1JW7LxfsAKs/source.gif Indeed. So, in no particular order, here's a list of random shit I can't do or I need …
So I have a bit to tell you what happened yesterday... The Good: I've helped with Kiddush a few times at the temple. Rabbi S has tried a few times & I insist on taking over (I can just see his white tallit fall into the grape juice! Ugh!) or he just asks me directly. …
I was thinking the other day about those I've *held a candle for. Those I've hoped, prayed, begged, pleaded to get help & make changes. Sometimes it's because they're on a destructive path. Other times, it's because I care more about their success than they do. God, what a bitch, right? 😉 But I had …
This is just a quick note. Something I've recently noticed & it made me sad. So you know how most male friends of mine fade off because of their insecure & controlling girlfriends/wives? Even though I'm perfectly happy in my own relationship? And how it makes me feel like shit because my intentions are good? …
I'm an unusual believer/skeptic. I do believe in ghosts but I also believe that most of the paranormal could be explained by science. I don't buy into conspiracy theories but I'm wise enough to know that the government doesn't tell its people everything that's going on. I don't think crystals & rocks have healing powers …
