Floating

Just get it out, SC. Type until you feel better. I'm not sure where to go from here. I'm slightly better than yesterday but not by much if I'm being honest. I still feel like I'm just floating downstream. I'm sure it's hard to understand if you've never experienced a depressive episode. I can't just …

Jagged

So how are you? Long-time no see. (Talk? See? I don't know.) I feel like the last few weeks have been a blink. I've been pushing & pushing so much that I knew this was gonna happen. And today it happened. I hit a fucking wall. I woke up & immediately felt defeated. Yep. Low …

Backpedaling

Such a cute movie! Hey stranger - So Job #1 has been crazy busy (seasonal work & all) so I haven't had time to actually talk to you & get you caught up on what's going on with me. I still have my list of several topics to cover with you. It's funny because I'll …

Stunned

Sigh... Well, I don't have to wait until October anymore. I got my answer tonight & I wasn't ready at all. It was wrapped in a broken promised package with a pretty little bow. Things that were gonna work a few days ago are now gone. I'm so tired of being hurt. I'm so tired …

Day 1

So like I told you yesterday, I decided to start at the gym today. I did & I felt powerful. God, I've missed this. I'm excited to go back tomorrow, even though I know I'll probably be sore in the morning. 😉 Worth it. It's obvious to me that I'm using it as therapy because …

Worn out

I started classes last week which was great. I noticed last night that I was missing a few students & I had a few "sickies" show up. And today? Today, my throat hurts & I'm a little stuffy. Ughhhh. Leave your sick kids at home! Airborne viruses are a thing! My period started yesterday, too. …

College & depression

Ah, yes. College. That time in our lives that's full of education, drinking with new friends, & overall excitement. When freshly graduated 18-year-olds venture out into the real world with Mom & Dad proudly looking on. What a time, right? Yeah, not for me. I know I've mentioned this at some point before but my …