Holding a candle

I was thinking the other day about those I've *held a candle for. Those I've hoped, prayed, begged, pleaded to get help & make changes. Sometimes it's because they're on a destructive path. Other times, it's because I care more about their success than they do. God, what a bitch, right? 😉 But I had …

Mysterious figure…

I'm an unusual believer/skeptic. I do believe in ghosts but I also believe that most of the paranormal could be explained by science. I don't buy into conspiracy theories but I'm wise enough to know that the government doesn't tell its people everything that's going on. I don't think crystals & rocks have healing powers …

Tweet

I decided to get back on Twitter. It's been about 5 years & I've been playing with the idea for a while. I'm getting more annoyed with FB & everyone's chaos. I have my own I'm trying to deal with. I also found myself editing a lot since I have coworkers, family members, & others …

Bird-dogging

Yesterday was rough. I did everything I could to not snap. I sorta snapped at my loved ones but nowhere near what I was feeling internal. I'm human so sometimes I fuck up, yes. Considering everything I was going through, I did really well. As you know, I'm not a fan of bird-dogging. Like it …

Keep moving

Today's post is definitely more therapeutic. My apologies if it's difficult to read. Ugh, I'm so over this brain fog. I know what it's from. I haven't been super clean with eating like I should be (like maybe 70% clean) & I'm on my period, which means FATIGUE FOR DAYZZZ! I don't like how it's …

Reflection

Ugh. I feel like I have so much to tell you, so much to get out of me, & no time to do it. I need to prioritize better. I'm sure my next few posts will seem scattered but at least you'll know why. 😉 So in no particular order, here's the first of many: Shana …

Floating

Just get it out, SC. Type until you feel better. I'm not sure where to go from here. I'm slightly better than yesterday but not by much if I'm being honest. I still feel like I'm just floating downstream. I'm sure it's hard to understand if you've never experienced a depressive episode. I can't just …

Jagged

So how are you? Long-time no see. (Talk? See? I don't know.) I feel like the last few weeks have been a blink. I've been pushing & pushing so much that I knew this was gonna happen. And today it happened. I hit a fucking wall. I woke up & immediately felt defeated. Yep. Low …