Gains!

I've been actively lifting weights 3x/week for about 8 weeks now. It's not something I've opened up & talked about since I don't want to be flooded with opinions masquerading as "advice." I'm doing a program, I'm being smart, & I'm seeing progress. This morning, I squatted 135 lbs. That's a 45-lb plate on each …

Coping

I woke up with chest pains & emptying out. Because I guess one isn't hellish enough? :/ I'm under a stupid amount of stress lately. What am I stressed about? Anything and everything. My weight, my finances, my relationships, my jobs - shit, my life. So guess how I've been coping? Alcohol. Like a lot. …

Not hungry

As I've mentioned before, I haven't really been eating. It's been like this for about 2 months now. I just don't have an appetite. And food, like this picture, looks disgusting to me. Not just because it's junk food. I've had to toss produce because it went bad in my fridge. I don't wanna eat …

♪ Ch-ch-changes! ♪

I'm a firm believer in constantly improving myself. If we don't push ourselves forward, we become stagnant & out of touch. It makes me think of the stereotypical middle-aged parents who try to connect with their teens by using out of date lingo or current lingo in the wrong context. For example, "Mathematics is on …

Day 100 of 100

Woo hoo! I made it!...ish. Final numbers on everything: PHYSICAL: Down 3.6 lbs. Pathetic but I knew this was suffering a lot. As DD says, "Mental health is more important" & I honestly focused on that more. I am really enjoying weight lifting & yoga so I'm gonna keep that going. MENTAL: I feel much …

Day 70 of 100

So I took a step back to breathe again. I could feel my anxiety rising & depression hitting. Everything felt overwhelming & there were times I didn't want to move. I had a few shitty days but, generally speaking, I'm okay at the moment. Here's the update: PHYSICAL: I started the keto diet with my …

Why I do what I do

I had a giant light bulb go off recently. I learned why I  emotionally eat. I mean, I knew the how already - in the form of whatever sounded good at the time. But until you learn why you do something, you're going to continue doing it out of habit. Once you recognize the why, …