discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
I've had this song in my head all day. It's like LMM wrote it for me. When I first heard this song, it resonated within me. Seeing Hamilton sealed the deal. In this incredible musical, Burr is alone on stage & singing how he's "willing to wait for it." Wait for his chances with love, …
After probably around 3 years, I've finally turned a corner with my dreams. I'm so happy I could cry. Let me explain. Since Day 1 of starting on medication, I dream roughly 5 nights out of 7 THE SAME DREAM. Maybe not identical every night but it's all the same song & dance even if …
This is just a quick note. Something I've recently noticed & it made me sad. So you know how most male friends of mine fade off because of their insecure & controlling girlfriends/wives? Even though I'm perfectly happy in my own relationship? And how it makes me feel like shit because my intentions are good? …
I decided to get back on Twitter. It's been about 5 years & I've been playing with the idea for a while. I'm getting more annoyed with FB & everyone's chaos. I have my own I'm trying to deal with. I also found myself editing a lot since I have coworkers, family members, & others …
Sigh... Well, I don't have to wait until October anymore. I got my answer tonight & I wasn't ready at all. It was wrapped in a broken promised package with a pretty little bow. Things that were gonna work a few days ago are now gone. I'm so tired of being hurt. I'm so tired …
Ugh. Okay, so today is one of those posts when I'm working through some stuff. Side note: these posts don't get put on FB because it's a little too raw for me. I'm really frustrated. Emotionally, sexually, physically. I've talked to him several times about this & I feel like I'm just getting 🤷 every …
I started classes last week which was great. I noticed last night that I was missing a few students & I had a few "sickies" show up. And today? Today, my throat hurts & I'm a little stuffy. Ughhhh. Leave your sick kids at home! Airborne viruses are a thing! My period started yesterday, too. …
Disclaimer: I'm sure somebody will read this & want to reach out. Please don't. I'm not looking for a handout or pity friends. I'm done with that. I'm working through some heartache & this is how I'm doing it. I've spent most of the day isolating myself from friends & loved ones. I need space …
I know I've mentioned this before but it's weighing on my mind today... I'm so done with waiting and waiting and waiting for people to get their shit together. I realized today that while waiting for a change that will never happen, I'm putting my life on hold. Why do I do that? Why can't …
Ugh. I'm emotionally, financially, socially, mentally, physically exhausted. I know. Everyone says that. I feel like today it's not an exaggeration. EMOTIONALLY I'm numb. There's some shit that has upset me (intimate relationships have their ups & downs) but I'm tired of going around & around. Fine. I give up. You win. Have it your way. …
