discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
Because I promised my therapist I would reach out when I felt like this, I'm choosing to reach out here. This is my only avenue where I can get full attention & I can be myself. This isn't a fun post. I'm just being raw & real. No gifs, no bells & whistles, no funny …
Oh, man. It's been a hot minute. I've missed talking to you & I wanna get you all caught up. I've got a lot on my mind & my poor friends are probably sick of me bitching to them. So in no particular order, let's dive into my book of latest short stories. This will …
CW: eating disorders, rude-ass people I feel like it's been a blur of holidays. First Rosh Hashanah, then Yom Kippur, & now Sukkot - all within a blink. I get the whole "tis the season" part of it but I'm still chewing on my New Year's resolutions. And still trying to make amends with myself …
I love ocean creatures. Puffins, jellyfish, baby squid, sea turtles - Ahh! Makes my heart go a-flutter. I love listening to water sounds or watching something like Blue Planet or Big Pacific to fall asleep. It's so fascinating yet relaxing. I mean, I also love watching autopsies & human anatomy stuff but that'll keep me …
Four years?! Crazy!Every year I like to bring up a few posts that I've gotten feedback on that have helped you. Over the past four years, here are the top four:What High-Functioning Depression Looks LikeSo I Got Fired... Thank You Me vs ThemAs always, thank you for joining me on the journey. This next year …
Do you ever look back at your childhood & think it was normal...until you start talking to others? I'm not just talking about the obvious damage like abuse. My brother & I were raised in a fundamental Christian home. Televangelists were to be honored & respected, regardless of their slimy ways. Halloween was "evil." And …
I try really hard to not compare myself to others. I know I should only be in competition with myself. But I'm human. And more than that, I'm an American woman. As much as it pains me to say this, society has ingrained in me to compare myself to other women. Coupled with my own …
Oh my. Where to start? I'm just gonna dive right in. I'm sure I'll piss some people off but IDGAF. I've been silence & complacent for too long. Now they get to know exactly how I feel & how shitty they've been treating me. And if they're surprised, they haven't been paying attention. I'm fucking …
I've been waiting a long time to tell you this story. Partly because I didn't feel ready. Partly because it still stung. But as time goes on, I find myself happy to have moved on with my life. Happy, but in a bittersweet way. I think I was 13 or 14 when I first met …
Some days I feel like I can't win. And this week has been one of those "days."I feel stuck in the blurry grey area. It feels like everything is fucked up no matter what I do. I have been actively trying to do the right thing, to go out of my way to shower others …
finding my truth 