discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
CW: eating disorders, rude-ass people I feel like it's been a blur of holidays. First Rosh Hashanah, then Yom Kippur, & now Sukkot - all within a blink. I get the whole "tis the season" part of it but I'm still chewing on my New Year's resolutions. And still trying to make amends with myself …
I love ocean creatures. Puffins, jellyfish, baby squid, sea turtles - Ahh! Makes my heart go a-flutter. I love listening to water sounds or watching something like Blue Planet or Big Pacific to fall asleep. It's so fascinating yet relaxing. I mean, I also love watching autopsies & human anatomy stuff but that'll keep me …
Four years?! Crazy!Every year I like to bring up a few posts that I've gotten feedback on that have helped you. Over the past four years, here are the top four:What High-Functioning Depression Looks LikeSo I Got Fired... Thank You Me vs ThemAs always, thank you for joining me on the journey. This next year …
Do you ever look back at your childhood & think it was normal...until you start talking to others? I'm not just talking about the obvious damage like abuse. My brother & I were raised in a fundamental Christian home. Televangelists were to be honored & respected, regardless of their slimy ways. Halloween was "evil." And …
I try really hard to not compare myself to others. I know I should only be in competition with myself. But I'm human. And more than that, I'm an American woman. As much as it pains me to say this, society has ingrained in me to compare myself to other women. Coupled with my own …
Oh my. Where to start? I'm just gonna dive right in. I'm sure I'll piss some people off but IDGAF. I've been silence & complacent for too long. Now they get to know exactly how I feel & how shitty they've been treating me. And if they're surprised, they haven't been paying attention. I'm fucking …
I've been waiting a long time to tell you this story. Partly because I didn't feel ready. Partly because it still stung. But as time goes on, I find myself happy to have moved on with my life. Happy, but in a bittersweet way. I think I was 13 or 14 when I first met …
Some days I feel like I can't win. And this week has been one of those "days."I feel stuck in the blurry grey area. It feels like everything is fucked up no matter what I do. I have been actively trying to do the right thing, to go out of my way to shower others …
I have this perfect analogy I wanted to share with you. I keep trying to explain my feelings to someone & it's not clicking. I'm not sure how to bring my point across. I think this "story" helps a lot & hopefully, it'll make sense.Let's pretend it's my birthday. And let's say my friend, Mary, …
I have a really cool story I want to tell you. As it involves a few different people, using initials might get confusing. So, for today, I'm changing their name. I've had this story in the hopper for a while. As you know, things have been "meh" at best so I feel like I need …
