discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
Some days I feel like I can't win. And this week has been one of those "days."I feel stuck in the blurry grey area. It feels like everything is fucked up no matter what I do. I have been actively trying to do the right thing, to go out of my way to shower others …
I have this perfect analogy I wanted to share with you. I keep trying to explain my feelings to someone & it's not clicking. I'm not sure how to bring my point across. I think this "story" helps a lot & hopefully, it'll make sense.Let's pretend it's my birthday. And let's say my friend, Mary, …
I have a really cool story I want to tell you. As it involves a few different people, using initials might get confusing. So, for today, I'm changing their name. I've had this story in the hopper for a while. As you know, things have been "meh" at best so I feel like I need …
Today's a rough one. There's your warning. Why are relationships so hard? Why is it so difficult to have someone try to own up to their mistakes & fix the damage they've caused? What is it about me that everyone just brushes over what I need? Is it too much to ask to meet me …
So after my last quasi-drunken rambling, I decided I needed a break. A break from people, a break from blogging, a break from anything I could get away from. I know I'm still healing & that it's not a linear process. Some days are awesome & others are really rough. I had a heart-to-heart with …
I'm not doing well. I was supposed to go out with friends tonight & they cancelled. Why does this shit keep happening to me? What is it about me that says that you could cancel on me & that I will just deal with it on my own? I had already rearranged my schedule go …
Ugh. Depression is a bitch. Let me tell you how it's been for me. PUNCH ONE Okay, so obviously, everyone is dealing with isolation from COVID-19. Staying home isn't an issue for me. And if one more person tells me, "Oh, you'll be fine! You're an introvert!", I swear to God... Yes, I'm an introvert …
This week has been in-fucking-sane. Every day, there's been something new - either awesome or incredibly shitty. It's Friday the 13th (my fave!) & I couldn't enjoy it. Ugh. Okay, onto my story: Yeah. So that happened on Monday... I could spend hours telling you all the shitty things Boss #1 did, how much I …
I'm feeling pretty low today. I'm frustrated with a relationship & I don't know what to do. Why can't they meet me halfway? Why can't they offer reassurance? They know I have anxiety. They know I have OCD. They know how I'm wired. They know I don't want to be like this. They know my …
I've had this song in my head all day. It's like LMM wrote it for me. When I first heard this song, it resonated within me. Seeing Hamilton sealed the deal. In this incredible musical, Burr is alone on stage & singing how he's "willing to wait for it." Wait for his chances with love, …
