discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
Ugh. Depression is a bitch. Let me tell you how it's been for me. PUNCH ONE Okay, so obviously, everyone is dealing with isolation from COVID-19. Staying home isn't an issue for me. And if one more person tells me, "Oh, you'll be fine! You're an introvert!", I swear to God... Yes, I'm an introvert …
This week has been in-fucking-sane. Every day, there's been something new - either awesome or incredibly shitty. It's Friday the 13th (my fave!) & I couldn't enjoy it. Ugh. Okay, onto my story: Yeah. So that happened on Monday... I could spend hours telling you all the shitty things Boss #1 did, how much I …
I'm feeling pretty low today. I'm frustrated with a relationship & I don't know what to do. Why can't they meet me halfway? Why can't they offer reassurance? They know I have anxiety. They know I have OCD. They know how I'm wired. They know I don't want to be like this. They know my …
I've had this song in my head all day. It's like LMM wrote it for me. When I first heard this song, it resonated within me. Seeing Hamilton sealed the deal. In this incredible musical, Burr is alone on stage & singing how he's "willing to wait for it." Wait for his chances with love, …
After probably around 3 years, I've finally turned a corner with my dreams. I'm so happy I could cry. Let me explain. Since Day 1 of starting on medication, I dream roughly 5 nights out of 7 THE SAME DREAM. Maybe not identical every night but it's all the same song & dance even if …
This is just a quick note. Something I've recently noticed & it made me sad. So you know how most male friends of mine fade off because of their insecure & controlling girlfriends/wives? Even though I'm perfectly happy in my own relationship? And how it makes me feel like shit because my intentions are good? …
I decided to get back on Twitter. It's been about 5 years & I've been playing with the idea for a while. I'm getting more annoyed with FB & everyone's chaos. I have my own I'm trying to deal with. I also found myself editing a lot since I have coworkers, family members, & others …
Sigh... Well, I don't have to wait until October anymore. I got my answer tonight & I wasn't ready at all. It was wrapped in a broken promised package with a pretty little bow. Things that were gonna work a few days ago are now gone. I'm so tired of being hurt. I'm so tired …
Ugh. Okay, so today is one of those posts when I'm working through some stuff. Side note: these posts don't get put on FB because it's a little too raw for me. I'm really frustrated. Emotionally, sexually, physically. I've talked to him several times about this & I feel like I'm just getting 🤷 every …
I started classes last week which was great. I noticed last night that I was missing a few students & I had a few "sickies" show up. And today? Today, my throat hurts & I'm a little stuffy. Ughhhh. Leave your sick kids at home! Airborne viruses are a thing! My period started yesterday, too. …
