discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
Some days I feel like I can't win. And this week has been one of those "days."I feel stuck in the blurry grey area. It feels like everything is fucked up no matter what I do. I have been actively trying to do the right thing, to go out of my way to shower others …
Today's a rough one. There's your warning. Why are relationships so hard? Why is it so difficult to have someone try to own up to their mistakes & fix the damage they've caused? What is it about me that everyone just brushes over what I need? Is it too much to ask to meet me …
Two thoughts I wanted to share with you: ONE: "Be kind to yourself." I was up until about 0330 last night. My body was exhausted but my mind was going crazy (thanks, Anxiety). As I sat there with my thoughts swirling around my head of things I should've done, why I keep failing, & why …
Hey -Â Things have been really rough. I'm just gonna type & see what comes out. I usually have something of an idea or I check my ongoing list of topics. But my thoughts are all muddled so I need to get some clarity. Let's see what happens... JOB UPDATE Oy. Okay, so after applying …
I've been trying to be more "in tune" with my body & its needs. I know I've briefly mentioned something about this before but as a quick refresher, I've had this compulsion to get myself physically well. I know what I should do but there's this feeling of being overwhelmed by the enormity of it …
I'm feeling pretty low today. I'm frustrated with a relationship & I don't know what to do. Why can't they meet me halfway? Why can't they offer reassurance? They know I have anxiety. They know I have OCD. They know how I'm wired. They know I don't want to be like this. They know my …
Well, hello there, beautiful! How are things with you? Are they as scattered as they are with me? Fantastic. We're in this together. It's been so hard for me to focus these last few weeks. I'm sure it's from all the holidays (HanukkahChristmasHanukkahNewYear's - as if it was all one thought). People are off of …
Such a cute movie! Hey stranger - So Job #1 has been crazy busy (seasonal work & all) so I haven't had time to actually talk to you & get you caught up on what's going on with me. I still have my list of several topics to cover with you. It's funny because I'll …
Sigh... Well, I don't have to wait until October anymore. I got my answer tonight & I wasn't ready at all. It was wrapped in a broken promised package with a pretty little bow. Things that were gonna work a few days ago are now gone. I'm so tired of being hurt. I'm so tired …
I'm currently sitting on my bed. I went to Temple, ran to Target, & came home. I changed my clothes, put on soothing music, & sat down. And the whole time, I'm trying to not cry. "What's going on?" My heart hurts. I'm not ready to open everything up & give you all the details. …
finding my truth 