Being afraid

CW: eating disorders, rude-ass people I feel like it's been a blur of holidays. First Rosh Hashanah, then Yom Kippur, & now Sukkot - all within a blink. I get the whole "tis the season" part of it but I'm still chewing on my New Year's resolutions. And still trying to make amends with myself …

Joint pain

I had my bi-weekly massage last night. I knew my hips have been screaming more & I think it's because of my ankle/Achilles. Like I've been walking with a limp so I can only imagine how that hip is trying to cope.Anyways, I told my massage therapist about my foot. I told her how I …

J-O-Y

Do you ever look back at your childhood & think it was normal...until you start talking to others? I'm not just talking about the obvious damage like abuse. My brother & I were raised in a fundamental Christian home. Televangelists were to be honored & respected, regardless of their slimy ways. Halloween was "evil." And …

Derailed

Today's a rough one. There's your warning. Why are relationships so hard? Why is it so difficult to have someone try to own up to their mistakes & fix the damage they've caused? What is it about me that everyone just brushes over what I need? Is it too much to ask to meet me …

Be kind

Two thoughts I wanted to share with you: ONE: "Be kind to yourself." I was up until about 0330 last night. My body was exhausted but my mind was going crazy (thanks, Anxiety). As I sat there with my thoughts swirling around my head of things I should've done, why I keep failing, & why …

Stretching

I've been trying to be more "in tune" with my body & its needs. I know I've briefly mentioned something about this before but as a quick refresher, I've had this compulsion to get myself physically well. I know what I should do but there's this feeling of being overwhelmed by the enormity of it …