discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
Mazel tov! We've made it 3 years! Can you believe it? My tagline for this blog is, "Discovering who I am in the midst of a chaotic world." I feel like it's still true for me today. Every day is another step towards my own, personal truth. Throughout the past few years, we've covered a …
My insecurity has been at an all-time high lately. I'm paranoid, overly cautious, & feeling like a fake & that everyone will find out. I've been so scared & anxious, I feel paralyzed. I keep feeling like I'm gonna fuck up with my new job. They've told me repeatedly that I'm doing great & they're …
Hey - Things have been really rough. I'm just gonna type & see what comes out. I usually have something of an idea or I check my ongoing list of topics. But my thoughts are all muddled so I need to get some clarity. Let's see what happens... JOB UPDATE Oy. Okay, so after applying …
As a Jew, I don't believe or follow acts of penance but I do beat myself up a lot for being human. So samesies? In an effort to work on that, I thought I would write it out here. Sigh. Where to start? A little background: I'm dealing with some life-changing shit at the moment. …
I'm feeling pretty low today. I'm frustrated with a relationship & I don't know what to do. Why can't they meet me halfway? Why can't they offer reassurance? They know I have anxiety. They know I have OCD. They know how I'm wired. They know I don't want to be like this. They know my …
I've had this song in my head all day. It's like LMM wrote it for me. When I first heard this song, it resonated within me. Seeing Hamilton sealed the deal. In this incredible musical, Burr is alone on stage & singing how he's "willing to wait for it." Wait for his chances with love, …
"OMG why can't you drop it?""Just fucking stop.""Why do you care so much?""Move on already!"I hear this shit all the time. Welcome to my world.All of this can easily be explained. And after having a big fight tonight, I figured I should work through these feelings & actually take the time to explain why.The simple …
Well, hello there, beautiful! How are things with you? Are they as scattered as they are with me? Fantastic. We're in this together. It's been so hard for me to focus these last few weeks. I'm sure it's from all the holidays (HanukkahChristmasHanukkahNewYear's - as if it was all one thought). People are off of …
I'm not really sure what to talk to you about today. I just feel this need to type so let's see what comes out. 😉 I'm trying this new thing where I just fucking grow up & deal with the shit I need to do. Crazy, right? 😉 Sundays have become my "pesky tasks day." …
Yesterday was rough. I did everything I could to not snap. I sorta snapped at my loved ones but nowhere near what I was feeling internal. I'm human so sometimes I fuck up, yes. Considering everything I was going through, I did really well. As you know, I'm not a fan of bird-dogging. Like it …
