Wait for it

I've had this song in my head all day. It's like LMM wrote it for me. When I first heard this song, it resonated within me. Seeing Hamilton sealed the deal. In this incredible musical, Burr is alone on stage & singing how he's "willing to wait for it." Wait for his chances with love, …

Stop

"OMG why can't you drop it?""Just fucking stop.""Why do you care so much?""Move on already!"I hear this shit all the time. Welcome to my world.All of this can easily be explained. And after having a big fight tonight, I figured I should work through these feelings & actually take the time to explain why.The simple …

Scrambled

Well, hello there, beautiful! How are things with you? Are they as scattered as they are with me? Fantastic. We're in this together. It's been so hard for me to focus these last few weeks. I'm sure it's from all the holidays (HanukkahChristmasHanukkahNewYear's - as if it was all one thought). People are off of …

Sunday Funday

I'm not really sure what to talk to you about today. I just feel this need to type so let's see what comes out. 😉  I'm trying this new thing where I just fucking grow up & deal with the shit I need to do. Crazy, right? 😉 Sundays have become my "pesky tasks day." …

Bird-dogging

Yesterday was rough. I did everything I could to not snap. I sorta snapped at my loved ones but nowhere near what I was feeling internal. I'm human so sometimes I fuck up, yes. Considering everything I was going through, I did really well. As you know, I'm not a fan of bird-dogging. Like it …

Reflection

Ugh. I feel like I have so much to tell you, so much to get out of me, & no time to do it. I need to prioritize better. I'm sure my next few posts will seem scattered but at least you'll know why. 😉 So in no particular order, here's the first of many: Shana …

Backpedaling

Such a cute movie! Hey stranger - So Job #1 has been crazy busy (seasonal work & all) so I haven't had time to actually talk to you & get you caught up on what's going on with me. I still have my list of several topics to cover with you. It's funny because I'll …

Simmering

I think this is part 4 by now... I've been taking little breaks throughout the day in writing this. Disclaimer: This is just where I'm at today. I don't need anyone to "check up" on me. I don't need to meet anyone for lunch. I don't need to call my therapist. I'm not in any danger. …

OCD is a bitch

My mental illness is not a party joke. "OMG, I like things so clean! It's my OCD showing!" Really, bitch? So you know what it's like to be tortured with your thoughts that never fucking shut off? And how they get louder & louder until you deal with them? And how you can't rest because …