My monsters

My insecurity has been at an all-time high lately. I'm paranoid, overly cautious, & feeling like a fake & that everyone will find out. I've been so scared & anxious, I feel paralyzed. I keep feeling like I'm gonna fuck up with my new job. They've told me repeatedly that I'm doing great & they're …

Penance

As a Jew, I don't believe or follow acts of penance but I do beat myself up a lot for being human. So samesies? In an effort to work on that, I thought I would write it out here. Sigh. Where to start? A little background: I'm dealing with some life-changing shit at the moment. …

Wait for it

I've had this song in my head all day. It's like LMM wrote it for me. When I first heard this song, it resonated within me. Seeing Hamilton sealed the deal. In this incredible musical, Burr is alone on stage & singing how he's "willing to wait for it." Wait for his chances with love, …

Stop

"OMG why can't you drop it?""Just fucking stop.""Why do you care so much?""Move on already!"I hear this shit all the time. Welcome to my world.All of this can easily be explained. And after having a big fight tonight, I figured I should work through these feelings & actually take the time to explain why.The simple …

Scrambled

Well, hello there, beautiful! How are things with you? Are they as scattered as they are with me? Fantastic. We're in this together. It's been so hard for me to focus these last few weeks. I'm sure it's from all the holidays (HanukkahChristmasHanukkahNewYear's - as if it was all one thought). People are off of …

Sunday Funday

I'm not really sure what to talk to you about today. I just feel this need to type so let's see what comes out. 😉  I'm trying this new thing where I just fucking grow up & deal with the shit I need to do. Crazy, right? 😉 Sundays have become my "pesky tasks day." …