discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
I've been thinking lately about people from my past. Old friends who've moved away or we've naturally drifted apart after graduation or when jobs end. Toxic "friends" I had to keep away for my own health (& my therapist agrees). Everything from big blow-outs over a significant other to walking away with no response. What …
This past Shabbat was Parashat Emor, which is a section of Leviticus about different laws for Shabbat, holidays, & so forth. Rabbi S focused on the section of harvesting & it's still with me several days later. Leviticus states when you harvest your grains, leave the outside edges alone for the poor to have. Also, whatever …
I'm sitting here thinking about what to talk about when I realized, "Wow. I had a really good day today." I started my day by going to Temple. Today kicks off Pesach/Passover. Service was lovely, as usual, but it was really cool to be there for a holiday & see how they celebrate it. We …
Aww! Bunny! The 58 inches (seriously) of snow is finally gone & green grass is starting to grow! Yay! Spring! This past winter was a bitch & a half. I'm glad it's done. Today is a typical April day here in the Midwest - a little cooler, rainy, & I'm just blissed out. I love …
My mental illness is not a party joke. "OMG, I like things so clean! It's my OCD showing!" Really, bitch? So you know what it's like to be tortured with your thoughts that never fucking shut off? And how they get louder & louder until you deal with them? And how you can't rest because …
Ahh, February. I'm not usually a fan of this month because I'm over the cold by now. Thankfully, it's a shorter month. And because of that, my overall focus is to maintain. – A snapshot – SPIRITUAL: 7 → 7 MENTAL: 8 → 8 PHYSICAL: 6 → 6 SOCIAL: 9 → 9 CAREER: 7 → 7 …
There are some parts of my life that I want to leave in the past. People who've hurt me, jobs who pressured me into doing something illegal, places I felt unsafe, whatever. We all have dark chapters in our lives. And it's those chapters I want to slam shut & then padlock. Never again, right? …
As I was lying wide awake last night, it occurred to me that I didn't do my January goals. Whoops! I completely spaced them with the New Year & all. So let's jump right in & see what I'm gonna work on this month: – A snapshot – SPIRITUAL: 6 → 7 MENTAL: 7 → …
It's a quiet Sunday morning here in the Midwest. It snowed a few inches so everything looks clean & pure. My house is quiet & dark. Ahh...I love mornings like this. I don't have to go anywhere & I can just be. If this was a few years ago, I would be waking up to …
I mentioned a few weeks ago how I was ready to set up & smash some goals. Staying with that theme, here are my goals for October. – A snapshot – SPIRITUAL: 5 → 6 MENTAL: 4 → 5 PHYSICAL: 3 → 4 SOCIAL: 4 → 7 CAREER: 7 → 8 FINANCIAL: 5 → 6 …
