discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
Today's gifset was requested by MB. Certain character you wanna see? Let me know! I've noticed a new change lately. I told you how I could tell my subconscious was finally cooperating. But I'm seeing the effect in my conscious life. I'm overall...happier. I can't quite put my finger on what it was or what …
I'm not really sure what to talk to you about today. I just feel this need to type so let's see what comes out. 😉 I'm trying this new thing where I just fucking grow up & deal with the shit I need to do. Crazy, right? 😉 Sundays have become my "pesky tasks day." …
So yesterday was my 37th birthday. Woo hoo! My birthday has always been a big deal to me. For an attention-starved girl, I looked forward to the day when everyone had to be nice & pay attention to me. Oh, neuroses... so fun. I told friends & CG to not get me anything & I …
There are several things I've learned I'm "too old" for. I'll be 37 in a few weeks so it's not that I think I'm old. It's more like I know I can't do some things anymore. https://media.giphy.com/media/3b1JW7LxfsAKs/source.gif Indeed. So, in no particular order, here's a list of random shit I can't do or I need …
So I have a bit to tell you what happened yesterday... The Good: I've helped with Kiddush a few times at the temple. Rabbi S has tried a few times & I insist on taking over (I can just see his white tallit fall into the grape juice! Ugh!) or he just asks me directly. …
Yesterday was rough. I did everything I could to not snap. I sorta snapped at my loved ones but nowhere near what I was feeling internal. I'm human so sometimes I fuck up, yes. Considering everything I was going through, I did really well. As you know, I'm not a fan of bird-dogging. Like it …
Ugh. I feel like I have so much to tell you, so much to get out of me, & no time to do it. I need to prioritize better. I'm sure my next few posts will seem scattered but at least you'll know why. 😉 So in no particular order, here's the first of many: Shana …
So like I told you yesterday, I decided to start at the gym today. I did & I felt powerful. God, I've missed this. I'm excited to go back tomorrow, even though I know I'll probably be sore in the morning. 😉 Worth it. It's obvious to me that I'm using it as therapy because …
Ugh. Okay, so today is one of those posts when I'm working through some stuff. Side note: these posts don't get put on FB because it's a little too raw for me. I'm really frustrated. Emotionally, sexually, physically. I've talked to him several times about this & I feel like I'm just getting 🤷 every …
So, as you know, I've been wanting to get some physical stuff taken care of. I'm 36 & I'm feeling the pressure to get my shit together. Not that I feel "old" but more like, "I'm not 20. I can't put off some of this anymore." In case you missed the first go-around... ✔️ Blood …
