discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
I was thinking about my last post & how I've been trying to make my peace with the fact that it's okay to stick with what works. There might be something bigger & better out there but it's not worth the time, energy, or drama to try to figure it out. To piggyback on that …
CW: eating disorders, rude-ass people I feel like it's been a blur of holidays. First Rosh Hashanah, then Yom Kippur, & now Sukkot - all within a blink. I get the whole "tis the season" part of it but I'm still chewing on my New Year's resolutions. And still trying to make amends with myself …
Four years?! Crazy!Every year I like to bring up a few posts that I've gotten feedback on that have helped you. Over the past four years, here are the top four:What High-Functioning Depression Looks LikeSo I Got Fired... Thank You Me vs ThemAs always, thank you for joining me on the journey. This next year …
Do you ever look back at your childhood & think it was normal...until you start talking to others? I'm not just talking about the obvious damage like abuse. My brother & I were raised in a fundamental Christian home. Televangelists were to be honored & respected, regardless of their slimy ways. Halloween was "evil." And …
Trigger warning: I'm going to talk about my small experience with dissociation as a way of starting to process this complex concept. I think everyone dissociates from time to time. You get lost in thought. You're driving down the road & letting your mind wander. You stare into space. Again, I think most people have …
Hey - I know we haven't really talked in a few years but I need to get a few things off my chest. I figured this would be the best way to do it for a few reasons. One, I'm giving you your space but not sending this to you directly. Two, you can have …
Some days I feel like I can't win. And this week has been one of those "days."I feel stuck in the blurry grey area. It feels like everything is fucked up no matter what I do. I have been actively trying to do the right thing, to go out of my way to shower others …
So today's post isn't a fun one. Sorry not sorry. It's a serious issue that I've been battling for a long time & I'm finally at the stage where I can confront it & start to deal with it. * deep sigh * The other night, I watched "Clueless" on Netflix. God, I forgot how …
My insecurity has been at an all-time high lately. I'm paranoid, overly cautious, & feeling like a fake & that everyone will find out. I've been so scared & anxious, I feel paralyzed. I keep feeling like I'm gonna fuck up with my new job. They've told me repeatedly that I'm doing great & they're …
As a Jew, I don't believe or follow acts of penance but I do beat myself up a lot for being human. So samesies? In an effort to work on that, I thought I would write it out here. Sigh. Where to start? A little background: I'm dealing with some life-changing shit at the moment. …
