discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
Hey It's been a hot minute. I've had a lot of changes. Some good, some bad. I've been thinking about writing for a long time but I wasn't ready. I just needed a break. A long break, at that. So why today? Well, to be honest, today is a really, really bad day. I'm mentally …
Today's post is written for those I hurt. No fun gifs or anything today as this is for them. I want them to understand that I am serious about changing for the better. Hey - So Saturday was...interesting. I'm sure you were like, "Okay, she's having fun" or whatever. But to me, it was different. …
0946 Waiting at the doctor's. Nothing quite pisses me off like waiting on others. My time is valuable. If they can cancel on me for being 10 minutes late, why can't I cancel on them? Dammit. I forgot my ear buds. I was gonna listen to audible or calming music to keep me in control. …
I recently heard Struthless refer to social media as "the devil apps" & holy shit is that perfect. They call to us, pull us away, & are oh-so-tempting to spend an assload of time on. https://media.giphy.com/media/Gbl6TLFdgsbaWMY83Z/giphy.gif I mean, I agree lol I recently hopped on a few more social media apps. Really, just to check …
Oh, man. It's been a hot minute. I've missed talking to you & I wanna get you all caught up. I've got a lot on my mind & my poor friends are probably sick of me bitching to them. So in no particular order, let's dive into my book of latest short stories. This will …
CW: eating disorders, rude-ass people I feel like it's been a blur of holidays. First Rosh Hashanah, then Yom Kippur, & now Sukkot - all within a blink. I get the whole "tis the season" part of it but I'm still chewing on my New Year's resolutions. And still trying to make amends with myself …
I know. I wanted to do my happy, little challenge & post every day. Then shit hit the fan. Why does Life happen like that?So what happened? A few things.One: I've been in a light funk. A "diet funk," if you will. I'm not super low, super depressed but all my actions & thinking say …
I had my bi-weekly massage last night. I knew my hips have been screaming more & I think it's because of my ankle/Achilles. Like I've been walking with a limp so I can only imagine how that hip is trying to cope.Anyways, I told my massage therapist about my foot. I told her how I …
I'm so bored today at work. There's literally nothing for me to do. And why is that? Because I'm so Type A that I'm way ahead in work. And because I work primarily in past dues & collections, I can't so much send a notice to a vendor when they're not late yet. 😉 So …
I realized something the other day when I spoke to Dr. H - I don't drink as much as I used to. It wasn't ever like I craved alcohol or that I was addicted by any means. It was more of a "drink until you can't hear those thoughts & feel those feelings anymore." I …
finding my truth 
