Being afraid

CW: eating disorders, rude-ass people I feel like it's been a blur of holidays. First Rosh Hashanah, then Yom Kippur, & now Sukkot - all within a blink. I get the whole "tis the season" part of it but I'm still chewing on my New Year's resolutions. And still trying to make amends with myself …

Lost & floating

I know. I wanted to do my happy, little challenge & post every day. Then shit hit the fan. Why does Life happen like that?So what happened? A few things.One: I've been in a light funk. A "diet funk," if you will. I'm not super low, super depressed but all my actions & thinking say …

Joint pain

I had my bi-weekly massage last night. I knew my hips have been screaming more & I think it's because of my ankle/Achilles. Like I've been walking with a limp so I can only imagine how that hip is trying to cope.Anyways, I told my massage therapist about my foot. I told her how I …

Bored, yet anxious

I'm so bored today at work. There's literally nothing for me to do. And why is that? Because I'm so Type A that I'm way ahead in work. And because I work primarily in past dues & collections, I can't so much send a notice to a vendor when they're not late yet. 😉 So …

Happy 4th Anniversary!

Four years?! Crazy!Every year I like to bring up a few posts that I've gotten feedback on that have helped you. Over the past four years, here are the top four:What High-Functioning Depression Looks LikeSo I Got Fired... Thank You Me vs ThemAs always, thank you for joining me on the journey. This next year …

Clouds

I've been thinking about what Dr. G told me to do with intrusive thoughts. She's mentioned to me a few times of acknowledging their presence (either by taking a moment or saying, "That's interesting") before releasing it & letting it go. I'm sure this sounds like an easy-peasy task for most of you. For me, …

Recognizing dissociation

Trigger warning: I'm going to talk about my small experience with dissociation as a way of starting to process this complex concept. I think everyone dissociates from time to time. You get lost in thought. You're driving down the road & letting your mind wander. You stare into space. Again, I think most people have …

Glow Up

My apologies for the radio silence. I've been chewing on this post for a few weeks. I didn't realize it was so difficult for me to get out. Thank you for your patience & understanding.I had a scary thought. I realized in about a month, I will have been graduated from high school for 20 …