My monsters

My insecurity has been at an all-time high lately. I'm paranoid, overly cautious, & feeling like a fake & that everyone will find out. I've been so scared & anxious, I feel paralyzed. I keep feeling like I'm gonna fuck up with my new job. They've told me repeatedly that I'm doing great & they're …

Paying my dues

Hey... So I've been in the midst of grief but I'm not ready to write it out yet. Everything is still raw. In case you were wondering why I've been quiet, there you go.  Thankfully, I have a list of other things I wanted to tell you about so, for now, I'll hop on over …

Be kind

Two thoughts I wanted to share with you: ONE: "Be kind to yourself." I was up until about 0330 last night. My body was exhausted but my mind was going crazy (thanks, Anxiety). As I sat there with my thoughts swirling around my head of things I should've done, why I keep failing, & why …

Penance

As a Jew, I don't believe or follow acts of penance but I do beat myself up a lot for being human. So samesies? In an effort to work on that, I thought I would write it out here. Sigh. Where to start? A little background: I'm dealing with some life-changing shit at the moment. …

So I got fired…

This week has been in-fucking-sane. Every day, there's been something new - either awesome or incredibly shitty. It's Friday the 13th (my fave!) & I couldn't enjoy it. Ugh. Okay, onto my story: Yeah. So that happened on Monday... I could spend hours telling you all the shitty things Boss #1 did, how much I …

Werk!

Do you ever feel like you're constantly running behind? Either with projects or your daily schedule or whatever else life throws at you? Because, same, fam. I'm not sure what it is lately but I feel like I can't get caught up. And "good enough" isn't good enough. For example, let's say there are 10 …

Wait for it

I've had this song in my head all day. It's like LMM wrote it for me. When I first heard this song, it resonated within me. Seeing Hamilton sealed the deal. In this incredible musical, Burr is alone on stage & singing how he's "willing to wait for it." Wait for his chances with love, …