Supernova

I've been overwhelmed, in a fog, & unable to think straight. I've been meaning to talk to you but I can't seem to get the words out. I'm slow-moving & I can feel the stress piling on. So much so, my jaw has been hurting non-stop for about 2 weeks now (from clinching, not from …

Simmering

I think this is part 4 by now... I've been taking little breaks throughout the day in writing this. Disclaimer: This is just where I'm at today. I don't need anyone to "check up" on me. I don't need to meet anyone for lunch. I don't need to call my therapist. I'm not in any danger. …

Roller coaster

Hey... I know I've been quiet. TBH, I've stared at a blank screen for a while before I decide to shut down & walk away. I'm not even sure what to talk to you about. Not that I'm bored with you, because I'm not at all. More like... I'm not sure where to go from here. So …

Realism

Please don't mistake this post for arrogance. Everyone has a trait they excel in - this one is mine. That's all. I'm sure if you talked about fly-fishing or ice skating or whatever you kick ass in, you wouldn't think you were boasting, right? Same, fam. I was thinking about the other day how I …

Unknown territory

So I'm not sure how to word this latest phase of life I'm in. I'm sure I'll sound bizarre & not make a lot of sense. My apologies in advance. I'm not drunk nor am I high. Just new territory. 🙂 I saw Dr. G on Monday. I was telling her all about these wonderful, …

Unstable

I've been feeling off for a while. And there's no reason for it. I'm caught up or ahead with work. I've got a great daily schedule that keeps me on top of basic household tasks & good hygiene. I'm loved by my amazing friends & relationships. Everything should be good. But it doesn't feel right. …

Overstimulated

I've been sitting here staring at this blank screen for the better part of 10 minutes. I do have a variety of topics to tell you but I have no drive to write anything "good" today. And you know what? That's okay. 🙂 So here's what's going on with me... The short version is that …

Therapy & Facebook

I met with Dr. G today. She is so encouraging, supportive, & funny. She & I roll our eyes over politics & ridiculous people and laugh at our crass sense of humor. 🙂 I'm telling you, hearing your therapist call someone a "12-year-old prick on a power trip" is hilarious! We talked about how I …

Ghosts of the past

There are some parts of my life that I want to leave in the past. People who've hurt me, jobs who pressured me into doing something illegal, places I felt unsafe, whatever. We all have dark chapters in our lives. And it's those chapters I want to slam shut & then padlock. Never again, right? …

Spoon Theory

Christine Miserando brilliantly explains what life is like when you suffer from a chronic or mental illness. The short version is this: It's like you start your day with 10 spoons. Each spoon represents your energy level. You got out of bed & that cost you a spoon. Now, you have 9. With me so …