Hey It's been a hot minute. I've had a lot of changes. Some good, some bad. I've been thinking about writing for a long time but I wasn't ready. I just needed a break. A long break, at that. So why today? Well, to be honest, today is a really, really bad day. I'm mentally …
My new journey towards sobriety
Today's post is written for those I hurt. No fun gifs or anything today as this is for them. I want them to understand that I am serious about changing for the better. Hey - So Saturday was...interesting. I'm sure you were like, "Okay, she's having fun" or whatever. But to me, it was different. …
Micro-Journaling: Day 6
1126 Okay, so I had a few rough days. And "rough" is putting it lightly. I'll need to do a deeper dive into this later but I completely binged on alcohol & made some really stupid, really dangerous decisions. I'm okay. I'm safe & I'm home. Just need to put that out there. Like I …
Restricting access
I was thinking about how much I've stepped back lately. I mean, I haven't posted here yet this month. I'm barely online for funsies anymore. I've been in this weird stage of my life when I'm enjoying the quiet, simple silence.Part of that is because I feel invisible. I'm not sure how I'm consistently being …
Short stories – Vol 2
Let's jump right into it... STORY 1: COVID IS A BITCH Special thank you to a family member who had COVID, didn't disclose this information or take any precautions, & spent all afternoon with me. They were coughing & sneezing & said, "It was just the end of a cold" when it clearly wasn't the …
Lost & floating
I know. I wanted to do my happy, little challenge & post every day. Then shit hit the fan. Why does Life happen like that?So what happened? A few things.One: I've been in a light funk. A "diet funk," if you will. I'm not super low, super depressed but all my actions & thinking say …
Happy 4th Anniversary!
Four years?! Crazy!Every year I like to bring up a few posts that I've gotten feedback on that have helped you. Over the past four years, here are the top four:What High-Functioning Depression Looks LikeSo I Got Fired... Thank You Me vs ThemAs always, thank you for joining me on the journey. This next year …
I deserve better
Oh my. Where to start? I'm just gonna dive right in. I'm sure I'll piss some people off but IDGAF. I've been silence & complacent for too long. Now they get to know exactly how I feel & how shitty they've been treating me. And if they're surprised, they haven't been paying attention. I'm fucking …
It’s time to go
Hey 🙂 I decided to take January off. Partly because I was swamped with work. Partly because I wasn't feeling up to snuff. Grief, stress, & horrible people who claim to love you. But let me get you caught up on what's going on. So remember the Grandma I wanted to see for Passover? She …
Diet Coke & molasses cookies
I've been waiting a long time to tell you this story. Partly because I didn't feel ready. Partly because it still stung. But as time goes on, I find myself happy to have moved on with my life. Happy, but in a bittersweet way. I think I was 13 or 14 when I first met …