discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
I've been waiting a long time to tell you this story. Partly because I didn't feel ready. Partly because it still stung. But as time goes on, I find myself happy to have moved on with my life. Happy, but in a bittersweet way. I think I was 13 or 14 when I first met …
I wasn't going to talk about this. I have a list of a bunch of other, happier topics I could get into it. But you know what? Fuck that. This is something I keep running into & it just pisses me off. But first... a little background. You know I'm a Jew. You also know …
Some days I feel like I can't win. And this week has been one of those "days."I feel stuck in the blurry grey area. It feels like everything is fucked up no matter what I do. I have been actively trying to do the right thing, to go out of my way to shower others …
Hey... So I've been in the midst of grief but I'm not ready to write it out yet. Everything is still raw. In case you were wondering why I've been quiet, there you go. Thankfully, I have a list of other things I wanted to tell you about so, for now, I'll hop on over …
Well, hello there, beautiful! How are things with you? Are they as scattered as they are with me? Fantastic. We're in this together. It's been so hard for me to focus these last few weeks. I'm sure it's from all the holidays (HanukkahChristmasHanukkahNewYear's - as if it was all one thought). People are off of …
Yesterday was rough. I did everything I could to not snap. I sorta snapped at my loved ones but nowhere near what I was feeling internal. I'm human so sometimes I fuck up, yes. Considering everything I was going through, I did really well. As you know, I'm not a fan of bird-dogging. Like it …
I'm not sure what I want to talk to you about today so I'm just gonna get whatever's on my mind at the moment out. Don't get me wrong - I have a list on my desk of various topics I need to tell you & work through. But, as you know, everything's been a …
Well, this sucks. Remember yesterday how I was honest & direct with what I need? Friend #1 & #2 have been damn near silent all day. Like maybe one or two lines of text. That's it. But that's nothing compared to Friend #3. I talked to them briefly on the phone & they sound happy. …
Continuing with today's earlier post... So I talked to Dr. G. Such a breath of fresh air. Seriously, everyone should be in therapy. I told her all about how I've been angry & sick of everyone's bullshit. I told her I don't feel guilty about it. I'm just done. And then she said the most …
I know, I know. I've been AWOL again. I've been swamped with work (Job #1). See, Boss went out of the country on vacation & sadly, this is when I have to use the opportunity to correct some fucked up wrongs without being interrupted every 2 minutes or micromanaged. It's a LOT of work up …
