discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
"We all want to be loved, yeah We all want just a little respect We all want to be loved Tell me what's wrong with that" - dc Talk This quote has been playing in my head for a while now. The older I get, the more I find this statement is really accurate. Everything …
A friend sent me a message this morning. "I want to cut today." I know what that means. This isn't a passing thought. This means the blade is in one hand & the phone is in the other. She's taking a chance & reaching out. You have to understand this important detail. Those who reach …
I realized something wonderful today. I've been trying to consciously make good decisions. To be honest, I've failed more than I've succeeded. I'm a work in process & it's been a long process at that. But something felt different this morning. I woke up smiling. I felt hopeful. Even on my good days, I didn't …
Oy. Where to even start? Around my sophomore or junior year in high school, my dad had some job change (I'm still not sure of the details) & I believe that's when it all changed for me. Money was beyond tight. I went to a private high school & did my best to hide my …
For the first time in 20 years, I feel like I finally know what I want out of my life. It's heartbreaking to realize it took me THIS LONG. But then again, some people in their 60s & 70s still don't know what they want out of life. Oddly enough, I don't feel like I've …
It's really hit me lately how loud everything is. The media, our friends, our mentors. And I'm sure they all mean well, but to me, it's a bunch of noise. I'm learning to pull back & go back to the basics. I'm pulling away all the fluff, ripping apart the years of doctrine I've been …
I am completely worn out. I've been around people all day & I'm spent. It's about 2300 & I'm about to go to bed. I don't do that. I'm usually the one that's up until 0130 or so with her mind whirling around & around with no end in sight. But tonight, I can't think …
I had a GREAT dream last night (read: sarcasm). I woke up feeling shitty & defeated. I dreamt I was back in high school. For some reason, my graduating class had to redo our senior year. So here were a bunch of 33, 34, 35 year olds taking classes again. One of my high school …
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finding my truth 