discovering who I really am in the midst of a chaotic world
As far back as I can remember, I've had more guy friends versus girl friends. I've always found girls to be catty & vindictive. I don't play their mind games & I don't like the backhanded compliments. Of course, not all girls are like this, but I kept running into this issue over & over …
Not like the brazen giant of Greek fame, With conquering limbs astride from land to land; Here at our sea-washed, sunset gates shall stand A mighty woman with a torch, whose flame Is the imprisoned lightning, and her name Mother of Exiles. From her beacon-hand Glows world-wide welcome; her mild eyes command The air-bridged harbor …
So I'm one of these people who turn crazy red. A lot. I'm not even embarrassed or ashamed. Just the attention on me or laughing or whatever triggers the blushing response in me. It annoys me. But it's nothing compared to every asshole on the planet pointing it out. *side eyes for days* "OMG! Look …
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I spend my Saturday mornings cleaning my house. Some might find it tedious but I love it. For as long as I can remember, cleaning has always soothed me. I grew up in a house of excess & clutter. It was hoarding, plain & simple. But for me, organizing my room was within my control. …
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Sigh. I'm on the upswing today. About time, right? Which means I should be back to "normal" tomorrow. Normal. What the fuck does that even mean? Nobody is "normal." We all fight different demons on different levels. I think we just reach an impasse & during that time, everything calms down. I think part of …
Ugh. Still in this funk. The good news is I can tell I'm "over the hump." I only cried a little bit today & I got more done at work & at home. I do work hard to not let it affect my jobs. I plaster on a smile, grind my teeth, & press on. …
“There is no point treating a depressed person as though she were just feeling sad, saying, 'There now, hang on, you'll get over it.' Sadness is more or less like a head cold - with patience, it passes. Depression is like cancer.” ― Barbara Kingsolver, The Bean Trees I love this quote. I think it …
Today was bad. Really bad. It was a low day to begin with. As anyone with depression can tell you, sometimes you can catch it & see it coming but not always. Sometimes you go to bed thinking you're gonna wake up & be crazy productive. But then depression is like, "Nah, fam" & you're …
finding my truth 