Today’s post is definitely more therapeutic. My apologies if it’s difficult to read.
Ugh, I’m so over this brain fog. I know what it’s from. I haven’t been super clean with eating like I should be (like maybe 70% clean) & I’m on my period, which means FATIGUE FOR DAYZZZ!
I don’t like how it’s taking so much energy to focus & stay on task. That’s not who I am. No offense to my friends who have ADHD. God, that’s a nightmare. I have no idea how they do it. Probably the same way I function…
I can feel myself struggling way too much. Is this why coke was so popular in the 80s? Everyone just needed a boost to get moving? I’m drinking a Bang but I might need a second one. I find myself drinking 2 a day or something similar to the caffeine equivalent on days like today.
I can also tell I’m right on the edge of an episode. I’m trying to be aware of it & do what I need to do to skirt right on by. I’ve been GOGOGOGOGOGOGO for so long. I know I’ll have a breather next week. It’s just getting to that point.
I did go to the gym yesterday. It felt good to lift again. I’m taking today as a rest day, which is needed because I’m sore & drowning in work.
How do people “have it all?” They have to be using or something, right? I’m busting my ass & I feel like I’m barely on top of life. But I can’t stop & think about that because that’ll pull me down. I have to keep going.
One task at a time. One moment at a time.