Migraines

Holy fuck.

I’m in a lot of pain.

It started a little after lunch. This annoying stabbing pain on my left side. But unlike a “normal” ice pick headache, it didn’t go away. I took meds but it still grew & grew. It wasn’t long before I drew the shades, put relaxing music on, put my glasses on, & tried to quietly finish work.

It’s been at least 7 hours of this bullshit. Non-stop throbbing around my left temple, my vision is kinda fucked up through that eye, & it’s all a deep, intense pain.

I. Hate. Migraines.

I don’t get them often (thankfully) but OMG. They are terrible. Absolutely horrific.

I had to teach tonight, too. And not just “teach.” No, I taught tap. To 18 boys. Who’ve never danced before. Oh & some them need to be properly medicated.

Oh. My. GAWD.

I sat in my car before class with my sunglasses on & my hands covering my eyes. My left eye was closed & I was focusing on my breathing. In through my nose, out through my mouth. Just keep breathing.

I can’t think straight. I can’t see straight. I keep losing my train of thought.

After class, I sat back in my car for a few minutes. I put my head back & quietly sighed. By this point, it’s dark outside so it’s not as bad as it was when I was driving towards the sunset. I just wanted to be held & cry without judgment or expectation.

I still do…