Hopeful

Yesterday was rough.

It felt like one giant shitshow & it kept building. By the end of the day, I was done.

I had a panic attack & it was a “big ‘un.” I felt completely overwhelmed & I couldn’t stop it. I had pushed it off as long as I could. By 1400, it took over. Afterward, I felt weak & empty. Only to be hit with more chaos during the day.

Like I said, it was rough.

I ended the day with a nice, relaxing bath. Shortly after that, I went to bed. I had nothing left to give. I was mentally & physically exhausted.

I woke up this morning concerned with how I was going to mentally be today. Usually, after a really low day, I have a mediocre day. It’s kind of a transition. But, surprisingly, I’m doing pretty good.

I talked to the bestie I was having issues with (going forward – BF) & things are doing much, much better. We talked a lot throughout the day & calmly discussed some things like the responsible adults we are. 😉 I feel like we turned a corner. I’m really happy & hopeful for us.

Some of the fires from yesterday were put out late last night or today so I’m not as burned as I was. I’ll probably spend tonight finishing up so that tomorrow will be encouraging & positive. At least, that’s the goal.

Even with everything, I feel hopeful. It feels like the sun is starting to rise again & I’m starting to believe that it’s gonna be okay. ❤️

Slayed me 😂