God, I love Wicked. I am Elphaba to a T!
I had an interesting experience a few days ago. I was talking with my Beloved (my own Fiyero, if you will 😉 ) about some personal things. Namely, things he’s going through. It’s hard to get him to open up. I don’t fault him for that because he’s been through some terrible, terrible experiences. Things you wouldn’t wish on an enemy. 😦
It was good to talk to him, not just because I love him, but to hear his side of things. We’re not fighting or anything but there is some miscommunication or confusion. Some things I feel just in the dark about. I’m really glad we talked & shed some light on these issues. Having a mature, adult relationship means sometimes you have to talk these things out, right? Much to my chagrin. 😉
I was amazed to hear how he felt. I’ve been taking things very personally, thinking I had royally fucked up & there was no hope for me. But that isn’t the case at all. Because he loves me, he’s pushing forward & trying to work things out. Again, we’re not fighting. I don’t wanna divulge too much as it is personal. It’s more like we’re trying to see eye to eye. Once we’re on the same page, we’re unstoppable.
It made me think of this line in Wicked. At different times, Elphaba & Fiyero both tell each other, “It’s not lying. It’s looking at things another way.” Seeing things from his perspective has really helped my mental wellbeing. He really does love me. I understand his point of view better & I can be supportive, patient, & kind. I mean, yes, I’m impatient as fuck & want things to be stronger & better NOW. However, I know that he’s trying to get to that point, & because I can see it now, I can take a step back & breathe. I know it sounds like common sense, but to me, it feels like a heavy burden is off my back. 💚