In my mind, I’m in a canoe in the middle of a calm lake. There is no wind and the waves are barely existent. I don’t have an oar nor a sail. I’ve tried to frantically use my hands to get some movement but it’s of no avail. I’ve tried calling out but I’m alone. It’s just me & the lake. I’m not in any immediate danger as my boat is strong and supportive & there are no predators in the water. There’s nothing left for me to do but to hope & wait.
And so, I’m carefully lying down in my canoe. I close my eyes and let the sun warm my face. Someday, I’ll float off and will hit the shoreline. Someday, this episode will end. Someday, I’ll get the answers I’m looking for. Someday, I’ll get past all of this darkness. Someday, I’ll look back at this & wonder how I survived.
Someday…