I just love this picture. So calm & serene. Ahh…
I’ve been sitting here at my desk for the better part of an hour, wondering what to talk to you about. Nothing really popped into my mind which was oddly comforting. I usually have a few things I wanna tell you but that’s not really the case today. Because today, I realized I’m at peace.
Yes, I power through struggles, but so does everyone else. And as you know, I’ve made some tough decisions over the past year. I’ve pulled myself away from toxic situations & toxic people. I’ve focused on my needs & doing what I need to do to get myself healthy. I’ve stripped myself down to the basics & at times have felt incredibly isolated & forgotten.
But today’s post isn’t about the hard times. It’s about me realizing I’m through the storm. I made it. I survived. And of course, I need a lot of work, but I feel like I’m through the worst of it. I’m finally at this point in my life where I’m not going to waste time, energy, & money on things or people who don’t encourage me to be my best. Clothes I feel like a whale in? Gone. “Friends” who give me back-handed compliments? Bye, Felicia. Food that makes me sick in the bathroom all night? Good riddance. Anything that doesn’t push me to be my best isn’t allowed in my life. It’s a hard rule but it’s brought me so much peace in my mind, body, & soul.
It reminds me of this YouTube video I watched of an appendectomy (because I LOVE anatomy!). The ruptured appendix had released its infection all over the other organs. The surgeon was using the suction to clean it all out to remove all signs of the injury. The surgeon commented on the video that the patient’s coloring had returned & he felt immediately better after surgery. Even before he could heal from surgery, he noticed a drastic difference.
Like that patient, I’m noticing my difference in my life. I’ve removed all signs of an infection & I’m feeling like myself again. I still need to finish healing & I’m sure there will be a scar but I’m okay with all of that. I will take my time healing because after all, I’m at peace. ❤