Maybe I should start out by telling you how I usually sleep.
After a long day, I look forward to hopping in my bed. My mind usually doesn’t shut up for a while so it might take me 30 or so minutes until I fall asleep. I rarely wake up at night (unless I have to pee) & even more rare than that are nightmares. I fall immediately back asleep. I sleep a solid 8-9 hours & get going with my morning. Sometimes I’ll take a nap but that’s not really common anymore.
Okay, that’s how it’s supposed to be. Here’s what’s been going on for about a month now.
I dread going to bed because it’s been the same shit show for a while now. My mind is firing on all cylinders for around 2 hours after I go to bed. I’m waking up multiple times (pee, nightmares, or panic attacks) & I’m wide awake afterward for huge chunks of time. I’m getting about 4-5 hours a night & that’s not consistent.
This is exhausting. Literally exhausting. I don’t know why I can’t just sleep like I normally do. I don’t know what’s changed.
finding my truth 