Happy

I realized something wonderful today.

I’ve been trying to consciously make good decisions. To be honest, I’ve failed more than I’ve succeeded. I’m a work in process & it’s been a long process at that.

But something felt different this morning. I woke up smiling. I felt hopeful. Even on my good days, I didn’t feel that. Mostly, I felt numb. I would wake up & be instantly bombarded by my inner to do list. I would feel overwhelmed & useless.

But today? Today, I opened my eyes, looked towards my window, & smiled. I took notice of the sun delicately dancing on the leaves. I listened to the birds sing their cheerful song as they greeted the morning. I felt calm & in control which is something I haven’t felt in a long time. And most importantly, I felt happy.